so joey from the real world cancun shops at forever 21.
yep.
i cashed him out today.

my thoughts are all over the place these days.
ive never felt like this before.

i cant wait for the mini vaca to north carolina next week.
thank god jenn and i fly for free!

every year, its the same thing.
last year, exactly the same.
it just came right at the start of the new year, rather than 6 days later this time.
i feel like im setting myself up, to get disappointed, AGAIN.
maybe i should stop this, before i get too involved.
im pretty sure i know how this will end.

my life is slowly becoming a mess again.
the only good thing, strangely enough, is work.

im trying so hard not to get into old habits.
i just dont know what else to do.
i just want to get my shit together.
at least be somewhat happy with the direction that my life is moving.

i think im done with pills for a while ( Read more... )

i weighed myself last night ( Read more... )

i just got back from my sisters house ( Read more... )

most relationships seem so transitory;
theyre all good, but not the permanent one.

i just had to take my best friend to the train station.
i had to sit there and watch her walk away.
walk away to get on a train to chicago.
not because shes visiting, but because shes moving.

i dont think my eyes have ever streamed tears so easily/heavily.
no matter what i do, they just keep pouring out.
and theres just something about this feeling, that ( Read more... )

last night was a big explosion of fucking lies.
sup@ lou and him being THE shittiest person i have EVER met.
sup@ bobby trice and him liking me.
sup@ me liking lou, & not bobby.
sup@ sardo, and him somehow ending up in the picture..

as far as im concerned. i am fucking DONE with lou.
you want to call me a shitty person. for what?
because bobby likes me, ( Read more... )