im not sure whats been coming over me lately. i havent been very focused at doing anything. im becoming lazy and its not where i want to be at all. ive made too many empty promises to myself and i have to stop. right now my main focus are exams. while im not exactly studying i need to at least put in an effort. i know i can get my diploma if i just ( Read more... )

i lay next to you on the bathroom floor. the tiles were moist with our sweat a dazzling fog rose. the clamor beyond the door was deafening but we couldnt hear anything except the pounding of my heart. we inhaled but we couldnt feel the oxygen in our lungs. we looked around but all we could see were the transluscent screens and all i could ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel bad for doing things that i dont really plan on doing they just sort of happen. and then something happens to make me feel worse. i try not to sweat the little things. but i cant decide what i hold dearer.

last night was amazing. it was the most fun ive had in a long time. i made some great memories and experienced alot of funny and insane things. the concert was great. i get closer to the band everytime. hopefully ill be at the barricade for underoath that would be amazing if not im definitely going to be in the pit if i cant get barricade. riding ( Read more... )

you just had to break my trust didnt you. you just had to satiate your immaturity. and look what it got you and i look at what i may have lost because of you. i asked for your confidence and you spit in my face. well you know what. if you read this. id recommend you stop talking about me and talk to me before i really fuck your day up. im done with ( Read more... )

so i have neglected updating for a while not due to a lack of thought but mostly to unavoidable circumstance and perhaps divine intervention perhaps it doesnt go that far up that the powers that be must meddle with my livejournal but something has simply been preventing me from any update. as i recall the past year and all of the diurnal i come to ( Read more... )

we think that luck is something we dont have

all i have to say is that im sorry i didnt find you earlier in your life and mine.

sometimes like right now i feel really lonely. i dont know why but the feeling just overcomes me sometimes. i think about past years and what it was like and how its relatively better now but i second guess myself alot. back then it was small and everyone knew everyone. there was security in that. sure i saw them alot less after school but at least ( Read more... )

i have three full houses lined up in a row...