I miss being able to tell some I love you..I miss being able to be held all the time and not having to worry bout problems..I miss having all my problems jsut disspearing..from him smeones voice...I miss that so muhc..I want love in my life again..seriousally..I think im beginning to become desperate for love which totally sucks..I just miss the ( Read more... )

I hate myself to the breaking point right now..i feel so ugly and hated..I feel used and abused..I dont know why..I feel like I have no feelings at all anymore..I dont even know if i like anyone anymore?...my love life has gottin the best over me ..grr...the people i like i can never have so im basically giving up on them..why bothor with them..? I ( Read more... )

Ugh! I can't fucking stand myself..I hate my friends I wish they would all just fucking dissapear...None of them give a god damn..I swear i'm just going to fucking walk up to that dumb bitch friend of mine and just punch the fuck out of her! she has a fucking lot of nerve to tell me I don't know who the fuck I am..she isn't me I know exactly who I ( Read more... )

mmmmmmm that bed of mine looks so comfy...yes it does..ah but i dont wuna go to sleep..newp..no sleepy for me..sleep bad..bad..bad..I'm in a good mood..yes i am...yes...woo hooooooooo ..sigh now im not..thinking.is gettin me kinda down..god damnit..ima murder my brain one day..im hungry..me and my friend r playin tic tac toe..haha...*sigh*...my ( Read more... )

Ummmmmmhm..Just seeing if this came out right...yewp..(my lj background..that is)

RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111 I [[[<3]]] THE RAIN!!! I get all giggly and woo hoo ! I just wuna run around playin in it..lmao..Ok I Think today has been a fucking funfuckingtastic day...but all together my weekend sucked..!!! I didn't get to see Skyler!! =( ::Shrugs:: eHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH me hyper..me hyper..I need a hug and a kiss..i feel so lonely ( Read more... )

My top 15 Phobias:

My most feared ones are in bold and colored blue

1.) Fear of love.
2.) Fear of someone loving me.
3.) Fear of The Unkown, Not knowing...
4.) Fear of Fear itself.
5.) Fear of Emtional Pain
6.) Fear of everyone hating me.
7.) Fear of Scars of pain from cutting.
8.) Fear of Failure
9.) Fear of giving up.
10.) Fear of being alone.
11.) Fear of ( Read more... )

wap! goodmorning ~! sorry for the little bitchy update last nite..just got to much on my mind! well i got like 10-20 minz be4 my bus comes so i'd figured.."hey! ill update Lj" yewp..bleh I'm so bummy today..I cant figure out what pants I want to wear...ZzZz Heh...Kackys..yuk..lol I want to wear my black dickis..but there to low cut n i hate that.. ( Read more... )

god..i hate life..I cant stand it anymore..I'm seriousally on the verge of snapping..I can't handle anything anymore..I try my best to be happy but I can't be when All i get is fucking screamed at and everything..my brother hates me..hes fucking punched me tonight jhust to prove how much he hates me..he was telling me he wants to kill me and shit.. ( Read more... )

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