sooooo ive decided that livejournal is WAYY OLD NEWS and have made a new 'journal' on www.blogger.com.

BUT IVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION- i love livejournal wayyy tooo much. 
therefore, im here to stay- no matter what.

ps- im going to be a mommy! 
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! 
couldnt be happier. <3

well lets see... 
1. new boyfriend. his name is jason. hes 25- and absolutely amazing. he is such a sweetheart; and if things keep going the way they are going.... it may just end up this way forever. :)
2. church is incredible. ive never felt so close to the lord- and ive never been so OKAY with it. i dont know what i would do without it. im a youth ( Read more... )

seven months later..

stilll in love with him.

hate it.

even though i have finally discovered that i dont need him... im still very much in love with him.

five months later.....
im still very much in love with him.

im soo antirelationship right now..

yet, at the same time- i miss him more than everrr...

life is gay. 

so... 
still cant find a good job. ugh its sooo annoying. i really want to get a job that ill keep for a long time- ya know? not some rinkadink job (like all the others ive had). mmm... thats okay. i have a feeling that ill find the PERFECT job for me- soooon. therefore, no worries.
church is absolutely amazing, by the way. i lovee it so much that ( Read more... )

because i DIDNT KNOW MY PASSWORD. grrr ( Read more... )

i basically have decided that THIS FREAK'N SUCKS.

ive been wanting so badly to have and experience the PERFECT LOVE..

who am i kidding?

i should have known.

theres NO such thing.

have you ever felt like you were putting more effort into something than someone else?
have you ever felt like you were completely committed to something, but others werent?
have you ever felt like you were more in love with someone who doesnt love you as much?
have you ever felt like everything you want to happen, never happens?

well i guess here it ( Read more... )

my life changed SO much SO fast.

thats basically the jist of everything.

oh that && of course an update:
i STILL have a boyfriend. 
i STILL find my self head over heels for him.
and YES, i confronted him- and stood my own ground.

it worked.
:)