woah...........i still love him..... realisation.

and once again im left wondering and worrying what you meant. i cant put up with this anymore, you've done me in. im beyond drained from your shit now. 

why do i still love him, why do i still even care? we got into an argument cause of how much he has been stressing me out recently by coming online late and worrying me and not answering me ro giving me a non-answer such as i dont know or meh or heh. i flipped and said if i ever did anything dumb i hoped he knew it was all his and adams fault for ( Read more... )

Why why why does he do this, am I just some play thing that he likes to fuck around with. I'm nothing cause of him and yet I keep going back for more, there's nothing left of the girl I used to be. Fuck me I need to sleep!!!

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When you care about someone so fucking much that when they tell you they're not ok but won't tell you what's wrong, your heart goes into pounding overdrive from worry ( Read more... )

I miss being able to cut all over, without anyone realising and without getting caught. I want to have pretty red marks all over my arms and legs, I miss the sting. But more than that I miss the happy feeling of being in love.

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i don't even know where to start, all i know i that im here and my mind is such a mess. i have no one to blame but myself for my own downfall. bad things have happened since the start of a year, bad break up, lmao well devastating,  injury and pain in my body that is only just finally healing in one place and beginning to open up in another. and ( Read more... )

Warning epicly long post tonight, serious depression rant/ suicidal thoughts included :/

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Iv had enough now.

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well it was my monthly pig out day yesterday. Ended up meeting jordan after he finished work at five (he cancelled on meeting me before work at 10am, which was why i got upset last night but oh well w/e). turns out he had bad deadlines for work which is why he had to meet me later. first time id seen him in about 3 months or so? anyway i told him i ( Read more... )