yesterday was just fucking weird.
well it was my monthly pig out day yesterday. Ended up meeting jordan after he finished work at five (he cancelled on meeting me before work at 10am, which was why i got upset last night but oh well w/e). turns out he had bad deadlines for work which is why he had to meet me later. first time id seen him in about 3 months or so? anyway i told him i was going to kfc but if he just wanted to get the bus down with me (bus route passes his house), that would be fine. he came with me though which was nice of him i guess. so i pigged out on kfc and got him a wrap for dragging him out there with me (he didnt ask for it but meh). weird thing was on the way to kfc he asked for a hug cause he missed me, which i did but it made me feel uncomfortable which i told him. he apoligised but i was like no its not you...im just not used to being around people anymore my age. after kfc he was tired so i asked if i could come back to his for a bit. he was like il probs just end up napping anyway and i was like well im tired too. we went back to his (stopped off at the shop on the way cause i wanted more food lol). he was right when he said his room was a mess lol so when he went out the room for something i quickly tidied the bookshelf area up (cant help it...see a mess and i have to clean it xD). so we both kinda just crashed out on his bed for a bit but he put his arm around me =/ i let him and cuddled up next to him and was like its cold, pass the blanket. we did that for like an hour before he walked me bk to the bus station to get the bus back home. idk wtf if wrong with me but being around him just feels right, it felt back like how it was when we were together. sigh, whats wrong with me....after being broken by him and still having trust issues. im still not right. gah!