as of right now. i hate life as much as i did a few weeks ago.

but lets jump back.
like.. 2 weeks ago. i went to Nicks house for a family cook out. it was loads of fun. from there.. i started to develop a crush on someone. bad idea. i knew it. but at the time it was good.
a week ago sunday... me, Lauren, Shannon, Nick, and Taylor went to the movies to ( Read more... )

soo yes. lately i have not been wanting to be home.. AT ALL. i wanna kill myself, i go insane. i get soo bored to the point where i start lashing out at my parents- or my friends online, just lay there and stare at the ceiling for the longest time, scream and throw things around in my room. 
this isnt normal.. at all. 
yesturday was the first time in ( Read more... )

um yep. time for this week to end please.

UGH, honestly, i've never hated school as much i do now.
SOOO much fucking drama, and we're only into ONE month of school. ridiculous.
i have another fucking History test tomorrow. im not studying because i dont care.. at all. he can shove it.
and i have an anatomy test.. i dont think it will be that hard.

i ( Read more... )

this has been thee MOST stressful week of school ever. i dont ever remember being this stressed out in my whole school.. life ( Read more... )

today sucks.
all through the week, people have told me that they were going to the hypnotist. yeah okay. sweet. "Melissa, i cant.".."i cant, im busy."
i wanted to go so bad. but i wasnt going to go alone, sit there and laugh by myself. nobody would want to.

also, i have no idea why, but i've been feeling very very lonely and alone for the past month.

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lets see..

Friday.. went to school and yah know.. it was school, boring and all that. got on the bus and Jade tells me that her friend got into a car accident down town. we went by the crash and SOM EHOW she made it up over the curve and into Diggers Liquors. soo weird. it all covered with tarp now. but anyway, it was a good ride home. i couldnt ( Read more... )

hello.
today was the first day of school for me. it was alright i suppose. i got all the classes i wanted =]
heres my schedule:

A - College English 3 (Mrs. Anthony)
B - Anatomy (Mrs. Klowsowski)
C - College U.S. History (Mr. Leonard)
D - Study (Mrs. Socha)/Gym days 5 and 6 (Mrs. Sokol)
E - Small Business Management (Mrs. Gaskell)
F - Algebra 2 (Mr. Mongiat ( Read more... )

hey hey!

mmm, soo school starts Wed. not excited the least bit. nervous? yes. i'll be pretty livit if there is no psychology. but i def. hope that this year, my friends are actually in my classes. i was stuck without them last year. they dont give out our schedules til the first day of school when we are alllllll sitting in the cafe. soo lame, and ( Read more... )

hey alllllllll

hmm sooo i scrubbed out to my loves house today =]. Magan. aaaaaah i missed that girlie. went there at like 12 and roast beef was there. HA. and then yep. we watched tv and stuff. then Tim and Colton popped up at the door and they stayed for awhile. Beef was talking to his boss and making up lies to not work, hes like "yeah im ( Read more... )

some people in this world  i think need a reality change. i know its a free world, but feelings arent freely happy. people stab your back, i dont think that would make you happy. certainly doesnt make me. it frustrates me and pisses me off. i wont tell the person because it would only make things worse, i think. he/she would fight back and not ( Read more... )