life is bad
as of right now. i hate life as much as i did a few weeks ago.
but lets jump back.
like.. 2 weeks ago. i went to Nicks house for a family cook out. it was loads of fun. from there.. i started to develop a crush on someone. bad idea. i knew it. but at the time it was good.
a week ago sunday... me, Lauren, Shannon, Nick, and Taylor went to the movies to see "The Nightmare Before Christmas" in 3D. it was so much fun. when i got home.. Lauren and Shannon said that he liked me.. they could tell. i got all excited.
then you know... it comes to today.. a week later. i found out he doesnt at all. awesome.
im just soo frustrated. i havent liked anyone in like 8 months.. and i forgot how hurtful it is. sigh.
really i hate this.
i havent seen Miles ina long time. and we keep making plans to hang out and stuff.. but it never happens. i just wish i could get my license now and not in a month. seriously. death to everyone.
....... Andrews mom died. i was told in school..aah it hit me hard. but i kept from crying til i got home. i couldnt let it get in the way of my head because i had a very important drivers ed test like an hour later. soo.. idk. i feel horrible. tonight is the wake and i feel like a need to pay respects to her. i knew her well. and she was prolly one of the most strongest women i know. she fought the cancer for as long as i can remember. i dont want to feel like a jerk for not going. i just want the family to know i am behind them 100% and love them.
sigh..
so this is why i hate life.
but this puts me in a good mood:
