their vegan vanilla chai shake has given me a reason to continue living. the best part about living in il again is that i am like 5 hours closer to the sweet goodness that is Chicago Diner (meat free since 1983 is their tag line.)

im done with cleaning and moving for tonight....i've been going at it since 8:30 am, with a break for work. this year my move was much more frustrating and exhausting than ever. my life situation has been getting me down (4 yr degree and still working the same crap job, the job market, and not having a solid place to live, and being broke.) so out ( Read more... )

i think im getting depressed.

and my plan of listening to xlfx to counteract the depression is failing.

so this summer has been great thus far, at least in theory. lots of beach time, reading, writing, and bike adventures. i learned to skip rocks.....but alas, it all feels so empty and meaningless to me. to cope i have needed an immense amount of alone time in an attempt to find direction and meaning ( Read more... )

four years have come and gone and some how i am still standing here, i've survived my undergrad and now i have life ahead of me. it's strange to think of school being over and how i will never look through the north central course catalog or plan the coming semester. it's strange that i have spent the last 6 years or so planning for the rest of my ( Read more... )

i have 6 more days until graduation. the last of my finals will be wedensday but right now my senioritis is getting the best of me ( Read more... )

this entire year I have been trying to anticipate what the coming year will look like for me, and it has been very frustrating. the future is so vague and nearly impossible to plan when you don't know what your work and living situation. i hate this so much because i am such a planner. college was an easy transition, i had almost every step planned ( Read more... )

I hate your winters. This has been the worst one in my entire 4 years here. Temperatures of -45 and now all this snow being vomited down on us. Gah I need to get out of here....this had better be my last winter here ( Read more... )

im listening to dashboard (lol)and feeling icky inside. i havent really put my finger on why i feel like this. its really a combination of things; past issues, feelings of neglect, heartache, tiredness, being overworked. today i felt like locking myself into my room and writing until things felt better. or driving myself out to pacem in terris for ( Read more... )

my phone really isn't working and my bed is slowly deflating.

only 3 hours of sleep and tons to do. page 17/30 and no matter how much i write i will most likely be short.

its the little things that are making this a terrible semester.