Well, I've discovered some things that I wish had been left buried. You know what they say about curiosity and the cat... Apparently, Melissa has a new journal (which I suspected anyway) and has been saying some pretty shitty things about me ( Read more... )

Well, shit. I'm just trying to go on with life in whatever manner possible. For those that haven't figured it out yet, Melissa and I are done, most likely for good. She's just not the same person anymore. I love her so much still, but she's so selfish and self-centered now that it just can't happen. She admits that leaving California was the worst ( Read more... )

Well, I don't know what to do anymore. The information I get is continually worse and worse. Oh well, I don't have much longer to worry about things. One way or another the pain must end. Everything rests on one decision which is so complicated that to call it "complicated" is to insult it. I'm truly damned if I do and damned if I don't; and I'm ( Read more... )

Well, we're only about 29+ hours away from the start of a whole new year. I'll be the first one to admit that this year didn't turn out quite like I expected ( Read more... )

Just a quick note to say Merry Christmas to everyone out there! Hope it went well for you all...

So much build-up, so quickly it comes and goes...

This is the day I miss that certain someone the most. I love you sweetie! I hope today was great for you...

I think I have reached my holiday shopping limit! I went out today and regretted it from the start. After all, I should know better. Anyway, I was unsuccessful shopping-wise so I think we'll just have to make do ( Read more... )

I've been in a really weird place for the last three days. I'm very anxious amongst other things and I can't seem to shake it. I have virtually no appetite and my brain seems to be going non-stop. I cannot help myself and it's starting to creep me out.

Am I losing my grip?

I'd heard them before, but never believed them true ( Read more... )

I'm spent. I have been on the computer for a few hours now and before that I was doing something I have needed to do for a long time. I don't know for sure where it will lead, but at least this particular situation is better off now than before ( Read more... )

Yay! I'm typing this from my new computer. It's quite nice to be able to do this from my own room. It's also very weird in a way ( Read more... )