You its wierd how I forgot about this thing. My livejournal has been apart of my life. I feel that it has helped me with some of my hardest times. My life is so different since the last time I made an entire. When I longed in it said the last time was 17 weeks ago. In 17 weeks I have changed so much. I have made bonds with people that will last a ( Read more... )

Its been a while.
I'm lonely. I feel like I have no friends. I hate feeling worthless. I hate knowing that I am no ones number one person. I am no one. No one likes me enough to make the effort to make me feel loved. It doesnt matter if I am happy. I mean who even cares? I wish someone cared.

So I only have 12 more days left. And the closer this day comes the more I realize how many REAL friends I have. Seriously, Carly has been my best friend for YEARS and YEARS but right now I don't even feel it anymore. She barely talks to me, knows NOTHING about my life and I know NOTHING about hers. I used to think it was just our thing to talk ( Read more... )

I am so fucking PISSED off. And guys say girls hold grudges? So me and Nick got into an argument at work and I almost walked out. He was being an asshole and I am sick of the way he treats people at work. If you seriously fucking think you are top shit because you are assistant manager IN TRAINING, then you are fucking gay. You had a chance at ( Read more... )

It is now 49 days til I am at BGSU. Totally overly excited. Even single time I think about it I have a little freak out and get SUPER excited. I think I am glad I waited a year to go. I dont think I would have been this excited or ready last year. But yeah I seriously can not wait ( Read more... )

For real I so sick of this. Whenever I try to plan something it NEVER fucking happens. I took 3 days off, and out of all of them Sunday was the only day worth calling off for. Yesterday Heather and Nick were suppose to come over and we were gonna drink and shit cause Nick turned 21. Well they didnt get here til 10 and Michela didnt go to bed til 12 ( Read more... )

I still love you. Forever and for always. I miss you but I'm not sad. I just hope you are really happy.

Love Always,
Jeni

Remind me to NEVER EVER date again. He is acting immature and is being the BIGGEST jerk alive. Worse then David. I hate hate hate hate hate him. I wanna hurt him as bad or worse then he is hurting me. I have a death wish on someone who is being such a prick. I almost walked out of work because he was being such a douchebag. So he can go out and be ( Read more... )

So I did it. I finally did it. I broke up with him. I thought I would feel so great and happy and free finally. But I have been crying off and on for two hours. Why? I feel so bad, horrible. Way too nice to me. Maybe he should of screamed at me, told me I was a bitch, something. I think it would have been a reaction I  was looking for. But since he ( Read more... )

Its still only May but BG is all I think about. Every time I think about it I get so excited. For once in my life I think I have made the right decision. I need to be getting to sleep, I have a final in the morning but I am too excited. The end of this semester means summer. And summer means BG. The two things I have been waiting for since I got ( Read more... )