FUCK. i'm sooo fucking mad at myself. i NEED to get over him.  it's really killing me slowly...

it's so much easier said than done.  if only with a snap of our fingers we could transform our thoughts and emotions and control our brains...
@!#@%%$*^&_&(*^&^&%^$#@!!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!

it's past 5 in the morning and I cannot sleep...You would think after my first day at work I would be tired, but I guess not.  So much is on my mind right now.  So many thoughts are swirling around.  I haven't updated livejournal in months and so much has happened in the past few months.  Nothing lifechanging though.  First thought, how can i get ( Read more... )

I hate summer school!  I wish I hadn't delayed taking these 2 courses, because now I have no choice but to take them this summer.  Biochemistry session 1 and Molecular Bio session 2.  In turn, that also means I'm stuck in Irvine for the summer, mostly.  WOOHOO.  I come home to LA most weekends though ( Read more... )

Do i miss you...or the IDEA of you ( Read more... )

I need to go to sleep earlier....I am crazy and so is my life.
I will elaborate later

My life has become so crazy in every aspect-boys, school, family, etc.  i have a midterm almost every week.  I had a psych midterm 2 weeks ago, an anthro midterm last week, and an ochem midterm this thurs.  I have pretty much started super cramming for ochem as of tonight.  The past weekend I was soooo unproductive and partied 3 days in a row ( ( Read more... )

Glancing back at my past few entries is depressing.  I would rather not think about the past and focus on the future.  School is going okay, but organic chemistry is the tough one.  Anthro and psych are pretty easy, and I should probably study more for them as well.  I still work at the pharmacy once in a while when I'm back in town.  Life has been ( Read more... )

I may have made it rain ( Read more... )

How is it that somebody that was once your confidante, joy, happiness, love, life....
is now a complete and utter stranger?

I lie awake at night and think about these things until I fall asleep.

Never in my life have i felt so down, so crushed, so sad, cried so many tears, gone so crazy as now ( Read more... )