I just won't no I can't get better. My lungs are going to jump out my chest and land in front of me. I'm sure the would yell at me for the abuse I have put them though. "Why did you smoke", "Why didn't you excersise more to make us happy" they would say these things and I have no real answers. Lungs I'm sorry, so so sorry, please forgive me. They ( Read more... )

painting, fairs, boys, crazy, loud, music, rain, cold, warm, mad, girls, friends, pot, drugs, cough, camping, hippies, skirt, happy, earrings, birhdays, water, river, rushing, drums, hands, bongos, tents, scared, cried, overwellmed, specail, love, dumb, bare, bear, death, shot, blood, dirty, fat, shortcake, mountians, green, butterflies, mosquitos ( Read more... )

Figi, Iceland, Thailand, Japan, South Africa, Texas... someplace.... I just want to run away to where no one can find me and no one knows me. I feel like I missing some great adventure in my life, maybe I'm not really ment for a set daily 9-5 job. I get the bogged down with the same routine. I don't know at least working at the camp makes it easier ( Read more... )

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!!!! This has Been going on for days. I feel fine with the lack of sleep, but when it's 1:18 in the morning and I have to wake up at 7:30, I feel like i should probably be sleeping. All I end up doing it laying there for awhile. I've tried reading but that really makes it worse I jsut get too into the book and then I can't put it ( Read more... )

So I ran across this, old list I had to make or a class. It's strange to see what I picked. It also intressting to see the ones that I have akready accomplished. I still have alot to go, I mean some of these are kind of dumb, but i ahd a deadline, I want to do make another one, that I can relaly take some time on. It's amazing how hard this list is ( Read more... )

Be warned I wrote this some time back ( Read more... )

Valentine's is Lame. We all say it probabally more times than we wish. Secretly everyone who says that Valentine's is lame is wishing for some sort of pink or red, heart shaped item, covered with writing of sweet little nothing sayings. Yes I am one of those people. I know that tomarrow I won't recieve any thing exept well a card form my mother ( ( Read more... )

So maybe not the entire trying to shit on my head. Most of it, but not all of it. I'm in a better place today anyways, I started packing finally. I think that is the worst part, it's like what the hell do I keep here and what do I take back home with me for 7 months ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do with myself. It's like all of a sudden someone just decided to continually shit on my head. I'm not coming back to Cornish this spring semester, and there is big possibility that I will never be able to come to Cornish. Fincial aide is a bunch of crap. I'm pretty sure, but I could be wrong, but aide means help. I have not ( Read more... )

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