got in a car accident, flipped it on it's roof. wierd. fukd my back up. broke my fake tooth again. turned 19. sleep. pabst in a bottle. music is better. i barely work. i sleep alot. i watch curb your enthusiasm. eyel;ash in my eye,. boys go to jupiter to get more stupider......................... i needpussssssssssssssy

truthfully, i'm depressed. painfully depressed. i have barely listened to music in the past 2 weeks. i don't even sleep with headphones on either. that's bad, if you know me. i slept for exactly 24 hours one day. at work i accidently gave a client a pill they already recieved. i almost died. i haven't prayed that hard in years. i almost threw up. ( Read more... )

i just slept 24 hours. i dreamt the best dream. i'm in love with a girl i've never met, i don;t think she's real. i barely listen to music as much as i used to cause of work. i find it hard chosing what to listen to. i barely eat. i smoke alot. i havent left the house in three nights, that's a record. work sucks. i have a headache.

start MCAR tomorrow. at 8 am. Boo + Yay! = ?. kinda sick, stomach is stupid. didn't go to work today. because i shouldnt have been fucking scheduled in the first place. thanks goodwill, you make sense! ordered the Lightning Bolt DVD, and the Harvey Milk DVD (not about the gay politician, the band ( Read more... )

i start working again tomorrow. haven't worked since thursday. and now i'm working in the back ( Read more... )

well. i can't tell if im getting depressed. i've been off 3 of my major medications for more than a month. prozac, wellbutrin, and aderall. in most ways i feel great. except this fucking bruised bone in my heal. and the deep voids of regret that swim in my head. i'm only human. but i can't tell anymore. it's not exactly depression. it's not being ( Read more... )

ummm. after a stupid month. i dont know what to say. you're gay..... you couldn't get a girl anyway.... DONE ( Read more... )

umm, well it's summer alright. the past few weeks have been stupid. no offense to anyone. it's my head. girls, jobs, music, money. no fun. and the taste, and the EEG. i feel like throwing up. but it might be the burger king. drinking feels unappealing lately. considering how fucking crazy small ships was. i actually bought my own pack of cigarettes ( Read more... )

i must disagree ( Read more... )

troubles come and go ( Read more... )