Comments | wondrous2: I Need to Get Away...Now!

wondrous2

I Need to Get Away...Now!

Jun 08, 2006 12:47

Didn't have a very good night. I felt hopeless and suicidal so I took two Ambien pills (I usually take two), but it took me a while to fall asleep. My dreams sucked because I woke up only to be anxious. My parents finally gave me my mail, but since one of them is a bill I will get charged a $15 late fee...AGAIN!!! Well, actually I finally found ( Read more... )

bitchy

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iamasupermidget June 8 2006, 21:58:05 UTC

I wish I had some sleep advice I could give you. I'm on the opposite side of the hill. When I'm really depressed I sleep too much.

I would just say, if you can't sleep, don't. Pick up a book and read, or do whatever activity you can do. I think the sleep problems will be less anxiety provoking if you don't feel like you are obligated to sleep.

Re: Some thoughts on Suicide myrepose June 12 2006, 05:49:21 UTC

I absolutely agree with your thoughts. Your post was the best response I've read yet. I have become so frustrated who think "ignorance is bliss" is a slogan to live by. In fact, I had an argument with someone yesterday who commented that they thought knowledge constitutes a form of evil, because without knowledge people can't be "evil". I don't think I've heard of anything so... silly.

I'm also mentally ill and even though life does get better at times, I don't doubt that I will one day kill myself, at a time that suits me, I suppose. In some ways, it feels good to have some small amount of control over "fate". More than that, it's not right that some left over moral remnants of Christianity should still dictate societal values.

Thank you for your thoughts and you may certainly save my post as part of your memories if you would like.

Mel

microsleep June 14 2006, 01:45:57 UTC

Yikes!! they intercept your mail! what a horrible breach of privacy! it sounds like jail. i hope you get out of there soon. xo

anniel1972 June 14 2006, 04:28:04 UTC

I agree with microsleep. Maybe you could check with the local post office and find out how much they would charge you for a P.O. Box for the time. My mom had to get one because my dad took her mail (mostly bills), hid it and would never admit to taking it. So everything was always late until she got a box, that took care of the whole thing.

Hugs