I think I'm gonna look for a second job. I don't start Target until the 16th of February, and I know that they'll start me off with twenty or less hours per week. The last Target I worked for gave me about 30hrs. my first week and then 40+hrs. after that. I hope this one will do the same. Even then that won't be enough to cover all my damn ( Read more... )

My parents want me to start paying the light and gas bills. Damn. When I got a job, I didn't intend on paying for the things that are my parents' responsibility. So what if they're my parents?! Those bastards never want to help me! They refuse to help me with my illnesses and my college tuition, so I got a job in order to be more financially ( Read more... )

If this bitch don't stop talkin' to me...*shakes head*

Didn't have a very good night. I felt hopeless and suicidal so I took two Ambien pills (I usually take two), but it took me a while to fall asleep. My dreams sucked because I woke up only to be anxious. My parents finally gave me my mail, but since one of them is a bill I will get charged a $15 late fee...AGAIN!!! Well, actually I finally found ( Read more... )

If I had a gun, I'd probably murder my parents and then murder myself. I can't continue to live like this. The only choice that I have is to kill myself or to move the fuck out. I need to call someone now...*tears*

Yes, I continue to mention this damn mental disorder, but you would too if it was fuckin' up your life! Plus, this is my journal. Don't like what it reads, then read something else. Anyway, the disorder really screws up my thinking. It will take a long time to fix it, but if helpful and intelligent people continue to assist me, then I will be ( Read more... )