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[wolfshift]

Maybe I have to choose between faith and community -- maybe I can't actually have both.

Or maybe I need to get really secure in my own faith before I go looking for a community of faith, and maybe if I do that I'll know better what kind of community I need, if any

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[randomcub]

Well, I kinda consider myself "bi-denominational" in some ways. Maybe you're "poly-religional" . . . ?

The "lig" in religion, I understand, is the same "lig" as in ligament -- that which holds things together. Maybe you're just into "bondage" regardless of the setting.

(Is that the "pig" equivalent of religious interest? i.e.,"Anything & everything works!"?)

*gentle tease*

I do sympathize. Seems like you're seeking out your own path weaving amidst several monolithic religions that claim exclusivity, and that is hard to do. Or maybe a better image is, a brick from this monolith, a brick from that monolith. . .

[wolfshift]

Or maybe a better image is, a brick from this monolith, a brick from that monolith

Yeah, I just don't want either of them to fall on my head.

[randomcub]

Oh, just enjoy the pain. ;-)

. . . or duck.

[wolfshift]

I have this feeling that I only ever turned to Christianity out of convenience.

[veronica_milvus]

Your therapist is right in this regard - you are looking for black and white in a world of grey. Sometimes you might have to accept the ambiguity (some people would call it the mystery) of things being separate and not, clear and not, of God being One, and yet three...

You might not have to choose one perspective over another, you might just have to accept the multiple perspectives that you are seeing through a glass, darkly...

At work, believe it or not, being "comfortable with ambiguity" is seen as a virtue. Sometimes we just have to live with the fact that we can't know everything at this point, that certain decisions cannot yet be made, that the future may look like THIS or like THAT. It's supposed to be a sign of maturity that we can live with a world that is not completely nailed down.

It is more grown-up to be confused, allegedly!

[wolfshift]

Basically, I just don't want to be continually shifting back and forth between two perspectives that are essentially mutually exclusive, because it makes it even more difficult to establish a relationship with the Divine -- and by the same token, I can't join a community of faith if I'm only going to believe in its religion for a few weeks at a time.

I don't mind not understanding God. That's a given.