I've not been doing the best since Tuesday night. I doesn't seem to be sick since I have none of the hallmarks of sick such as tender lymph nodes or something else the wind blew out of my brain. On the other hand, the symptoms, other than the eye-itchiness, didn't act like allergies either. I left work early on Tuesday. Was completely out of it ( Read more... )

I seem to be much more social and playful since Sunday. This is a good thing. I seem to be adjusting more to our household at TELS. We now have rhonan, rundesnettes, and myself in the upper house and klicrai and beamishboy in the downstairs apartment. I don't know that having everyone in the house is leading me to do better but it certainly helps a great deal ( Read more... )

I think I might want to re-read the Miles Vorkosigan saga. It might be comforting.
I've been thinking of the following quote from Mirror Dance (p. 717 of the omnibus Miles Errant):"I think I'll always love you, some. But living with you full-time would drive me crazy. You are the most incredibly domineering person I think I've ever met ( Read more... )

I'm still feeling a bit down. Some of the possible contributors to this are obvious. Another contributor is that a friend of mine is no longer working with me due to bureaucratic stupidities; I saw him last night but still I miss him. I'm a bit confused by this sadness since it's not presenting itself in my normal ways. I don't seem to be ( Read more... )

I've obviously arrived safely. I got in rather late since the plane from Philadelphia to DCA needed to have its tires replaced. It was bad enough that they took the people that were going to some connecting flights off and sent them on a different plane. Then when we got there the baggage carousel that our baggage was to come in on was broken ( Read more... )

I find that as the time to leave for my trip approaches, I'm being more and more affected by the thought of my Dad's decline. It's been bothering me a lot more today as I arranged a car rental. While I was waiting in line today to buy some spinach, tears just started falling down my face. No one commented; I think they really were lost in their ( Read more... )

I know that the current path that I'm on is correct from a life-flow standpoint. I even have multiple rational reasons for doing what I'm doing. Always in the past, if I decide that rational reasons trump what feels like it flows best, I've been rather sorry afterwards. So, following what feels right from my heart has consistently proven best. ( Read more... )

As for the state of the wolfieboy, I would say that the situation that I'm in sucks but I'm not going through a "Wow! This sure sucks." emotional phase if that makes sense. I used this phrasing with a friend of mine and I think it fits. I am having some trouble sleeping but I'm doing the best that I can. I think the counselor we're seeing this evening ( Read more... )

One thing about me that is very non-obvious, especially given my boisterousness, is that when I'm doing a lot of processing, I tend to be rather quiet. It's the hidden introvert in me coming out. So, I apologize for sending practically no e-mail and commenting very little. I just have a lot to process right now and while I've gotten better at ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, I begin training someone to do my job so that my hours will be less insane and we'll have two people to do the amount of work designed for two people. Yet, I can't seem to sleep. For most of 2 hours and 44 minutes (with about 20 minutes for LJ earlier), I've been trying to sleep and failing. Arrgghh!!