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Welcome to My Journal!
Much of the old content is friends only, and I may later make my more recent entries friends only. I'd love to read what you have to say, so if you would like to read me, leave a comment here!
(Special Note: I've made drastic changes to the layout, emoticons and title of the journal to reflect my recent attitude change and to remind me to stay ( Read more... ) -
Flying Solo
Sometimes I look at old journal entries, facebook posts, etc... and think, WTF was I thinking?? But the music I put to it was so damned good... Still though, especially now that I know how abusive the majority of these guys were, and how fucking important my daughter is, I don't understand why I poured so much energy into them. I feel so much ( Read more... ) -
My Life Now
There are two things I haven't given up- hope and cigarettes. They've both had their own role in getting me through and (sometimes) I've hoped for the wrong things. I don't regret a minute though ( Read more... ) -
Losing Myself Again
Don't you hate it when your life gets so complicated that you just stop talking about it, because you're just tired of explaining... and being judged ( Read more... ) -
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OHMYGOD I AM SO TIRED ( Read more... ) -
I know what I want
I need to figure out how to accept love from strangers. How to find comfort in the hug from a friend. How to find strength in the lonely dark nights ( Read more... ) -
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I just love how, when certain friends of mine are stoned, they actually think I'm going to let them watch my daughter ( Read more... ) -
Where I'm living now
Well, we found a way to move into a stable place, it's out in BFE but it's growing on me. The only thing that's not growing on me is the pigs; the llamas, sheep, donkeys and horse I got used to. It's bizzare but I actually enjoy the smell of horse manure. The flies, not so much. But at least the pigs keep snakes away, and the stray cats keep the ( Read more... ) -
No Matter The Consequenses
A slightly passive aggressive public post, I'll admit ( Read more... ) -
Growing Pains
There isn't any word to describe, the amount of pain you feel when you realize your closest friends really don't care about you. The confusion... perhaps they're too hurt to be able to care about anyone, or anything... I get it ( Read more... )