I'm the stupidest fat whoever stupidly fatted.

What is wrong with me. I just bought food. What am I going to do with this? My belt feels tighter. My head is pounding. I need to drink more water. Ugh.

I'm still alive.... I've gained some... feeling huge... going to try for nothing but tea and vitamins this weekend.

A few days ago, I asked my boyfriend if he would love me if I were fat. He said, in all seriousness, "No." Ok!

I feel ok and all of my vitals are fine but realistically I should probably be afraid of dying. My BMI puts me at below "clinically emaciated" now and every time I have a pain anywhere I think, oh crap, this is it, this is the start of The End. I want to schedule an appointment with a PCP to check everything that might possibly need checking but I ( Read more... )

My "UGW" has now come and gone. 1 lb below it. My boyfriend bought me cookies yesterday, and then today said he thinks I'm getting too skinny. So I said, well if I'm too skinny I guess I shouldn't share these cookies with you. And he said whoa whoa now let's not get drastic! Heh.

I'm a little scared though... I'm getting too close to the STAY AWAY ( Read more... )

83.5 lbs today. Only .5 away from my UGW, but I still look fat. Ugh I'm afraid I wont be able to stop until I'm dead.

I'm still around. A new low for this year today, 84.5. Kind of shocking, I hadn't weighed myself in a week and I thought I had gained. I was going to fast today but I may allow myself to eat something small...

I finally broke my plateau and reached my second goal! I don't know how it happened, I binged yesterday on ice cream and I was expecting to have gained at least a pound... but no! As of today I'm 86 lbs.

March 17 / Today
Weight: 93 lbs / 87 lbs
Bust: 32" / 30"
Chest: 27" / 25"
Waist: 23" / 22"
Hips: 31" / 30"
Upper arm: 8.5" / 8"
Forearm: 7" / 6.5"
Wrist: 5.5" / 5.25"
Thigh: 17" / 15"
Calf: 12" / 11"
Ankle: 8" / 8"

Everything has gone down except my ankles! But I don't really think about having fat ankles....

Food today:

- Fruit smoothie
- Rice cracker
- Luna Bar
- Plum
- One small handful of Reese Puffs cereal
- 4 cups of tea