My boyfriend always talks about how much he loves skinny bitches. So as a Valentine's gift to him, I want to lose 5 lbs. 5 lbs in 1 week. I think I can do it.

Down to 81 lbs today. I've only consumed coffee and a couple pretzels and grapes in the past week or so. Oh and a lot of alcohol, which I feel terrible about because I know it has a ton of calories. I went out with my boyfriend and his friends to a bar the other night and they were talking shit about an obese girl in a tiny top. All I could think ( Read more... )

Down to 82 today. My boyfriend isn't talking to me. I threw out all of my food.

83 today, I'm a roll... lol.

Called in this morning to stay home from work. My boyfriend made us oatmeal which I ate because I was starving. Then I went back to bed and slept until 1 pm, ahhhh.

So at work today, by the end of my shift I was staving and exhausted and stumbling around and probably looked awful. My manager said she thought I seemed to be very unwell, and since I was scheduled to leave in an hour that I could go home early and rest. I told her I was fine, but I'd take a 5 minute break to just sit in one of the comfy chairs to ( Read more... )

I have a half hour to finish getting ready for work. Looked in the mirror, nearly cried. Not just not thin enough, but my face is so UGLY. My highlights are growing out and it's obvious. Every inch of my body disgusts me.

Ooooh boy. My boyfriend convinced me to do hits of... something! At a party Monday evening. He just kept insisting I'd like it, and it had to be a mystery, and it was free so I did it. They also gave me some pills but I think those were just e and adderall. And so I've been awake ever since! Um. I'm tired but I don't feel sleepy. Other than a ( Read more... )

Meal plan for tomorrow ( Read more... )

Oh, how much energy I'll have when I'm not weighed down by food and fat.

New goal... <75 by spring.