Do you remember when we used to go sledding at the 'bowl'? that large dip in the land behind your neighborhood? did I ever tell you that three years ago, shelly and i went sledding and we had an accident and my ass is permanently lop-sided because of it? I've always wanted to tell you that. I've noticed that your posts are short lately and i hope ( Read more... )

I realized something when I saw him last and I'll admit they were two very weird things to realize at the same time, but thats what the night gave me and I didn't question it. I realized that he was no longer mine. He didn't look the same, act the same, hug the same or smell the same. Hell, he actually didn't even have a smell at all-or maybe I ( Read more... )

I was itching to fall in love ( Read more... )

tonight ( Read more... )

I'm fucked. Royally fucked. I have made myself into this person that sincerely believes that I am better off by myself. I have convinced myself that I am jaded and I know no pain in the present-only pain from my past. I can tell the world that I am not the person I was before and that I have changed and that I am this peaceful... person. But here I ( Read more... )

and all the moments and mornings lost
wouldn't matter.
i wouldn't care that'd you loved another in between;
that the waves had looked beautiful with her by your side
or that she made eggs better than I ever could.
because when my lips part at night-
i breathe in slivers of you;particles
that got stuck in time.

i wouldn't mind.

so my first love is back in town and the person I long to love is sleeping with the person he loves and the person that actually still loves me is alone because i didn't love him enough and I'm contemplating running around the house barefoot in the snow in search of answers.

thus far, I wish for 2007 to come running back.

its that terrible, yet wonderful song that tells us to weep not for the memories. and it never fails the moment that the first note is struck and your brain recognizes her voice, your nose begins to tingle and whatever you're doing, whatever you're watching becomes so much, sadder and beautiful ( Read more... )

Dear 2008 ( Read more... )

I know this feeling.
and I know
this will not end well.
I know my heart
will break
and the tears will be cold.

I twirl and twirl
in the thought of you.
blues
greens
reds
oranges
the confusion is beautiful.