X MARKS THE SPOT ( Read more... )

I'm lonely again today. Same as every other day. I suppose no day should really be different then any other day. I hate my life sometimes, yeah i know if you hate it that much then why not change it. Well I am trying. I need a shrink thats what I need. lol I dont really know whats going on, im confussed about so much shit. But yet at the same time ( Read more... )

New Years was a bust. I never watch the ball drop anymore. Fuck that everyone and their mothers makin out. I never had anyone to make out with. Oh well you get used to it. Stepdad offered me a beer, but I declined, mom would have a fit. And I didnt wanna hear about it all night. It aint worth it. Nothing really to say. I'm gonna go cause ...well ( Read more... )

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong ( Read more... )

Well I hate when the holidays come around, I hate it. I hate getting up early, I hate shopping, and I hate how I get so fucking lonely. Christmas was cool, I got just about everything I asked for. I feel so fucking depressed right now, cause im so fucking lonely. And everyone wonders why I am such a fuckin scrooge. But it aint even Christmas that ( Read more... )

Well the past 4 days have been very eventful, but I dont even want to get into that right now. Im still in the process of pushing it down until I cant feel it anymore. Think maybe its better that way anyways. I can wait till xmas. I mean I am sure it will be a good xmas this year especailly since I seen some of the things my siblings got, some of ( Read more... )

Well I am so stressed out right now. A million things running through my mind. I hate my mind sometimes. I have a hard time controlling the things that I "allow" myself to think about. My shoulders hurt they are so fucking tense right now. Grr. My parents told me the other night that the company they work at just got sold to the French. (Bonjour ( Read more... )

Nothing new as usual. Parents are working today which I still am not sure if that is a good thing or not. I have been thinking about a lot of crazy thoughts, thoughts of which I wouldnt normally expect myself to think of. Its weird and hard to explain, and I dont really want to go into detail. I think its better left unsaid ya know. Yesterday my ( Read more... )

A man decides after seventy years ( Read more... )

Pain is slightly decreasing. Thats a plus. My night was very uneventful. Parents came home blah blah blah. The usual. Mild rude petty comments were exchanged but thats all. Sometimes I think they need some counseling or just split up. Something give the rest of us some fucking peace cause frankly I'm about to tell it how it is to them. I am so fed ( Read more... )