I slowly came to realize that I am the memory of a tribe long since disbanded ( Read more... )

I honestly forgot that this journal was even here ( Read more... )

We met in a park a few years ago, and I really thought maybe I had a chance again, after all of these years. She mentioned her ex-boyfriend, of course, but it sounded fairly innocent...something she was over. And whether she was or not, the fact that she phrased it that way made me feel like I had a chance. Another chance after ten years, and it ( Read more... )

Well, I think it's official. I can't get women to speak to me, even on the internet. I think I need some kind of award for that. I envision a Miss America-style sash reading "Undesirable", or "Unattractive". Another few months of this and I'll probably consider going gay. I'm not even remotely attracted to men, but at least it might expand my ( Read more... )

I really do sicken myself...in that thinking about myself, and my life, makes me feel physically ill ( Read more... )

I have ended my previous journal. It had too many people in it that I expected too much from. This is here to organize my thoughts, and to return to ( Read more... )

This is my place to organize my thoughts. They aren't much, but they're all I've got ( Read more... )