Sad Musings
Well, I think it's official. I can't get women to speak to me, even on the internet. I think I need some kind of award for that. I envision a Miss America-style sash reading "Undesirable", or "Unattractive". Another few months of this and I'll probably consider going gay. I'm not even remotely attracted to men, but at least it might expand my options for human contact.
I'm tired of feeling so disgusted with myself, but I'm not going to magically change my mind about it, either. There would have to be a real change.
I had a very romantic thought the other day. I ended my last two relationships out of a vague feeling of dissatisfaction and then immediately regretted it in both cases. Maybe I need to be alone for long enough that next time I find someone, I remember to hold on to them. Romantic, but not true, and I know that in my heart. The truth is it's too late for me.
I mysteriously have a new couch, but no one to share it with.
To compound my pathetic loneliness, while I can't find anyone to so much as get coffee with, everyone else I know is having threesomes.
I'm tired of feeling so disgusted with myself, but I'm not going to magically change my mind about it, either. There would have to be a real change.
I had a very romantic thought the other day. I ended my last two relationships out of a vague feeling of dissatisfaction and then immediately regretted it in both cases. Maybe I need to be alone for long enough that next time I find someone, I remember to hold on to them. Romantic, but not true, and I know that in my heart. The truth is it's too late for me.
I mysteriously have a new couch, but no one to share it with.
To compound my pathetic loneliness, while I can't find anyone to so much as get coffee with, everyone else I know is having threesomes.