dustin snuck up on me last night and drove to my house. calling me and telling me to come outside....it kinda made me mad because he knew i didnt really want to see him right now. but ... you know me...so i went outside and i sat in his car..and we talked about almost everything. i told him i cant be with him unless he gets somesort of help for his ( Read more... )

so i talked to dustin. and then we were fine. and then he got mad again. and......i sat there and watch as he flirted and shit with these two gals. he knew i was there. but anyhoo blah blah blah. i think im just discusted now. what i saw turned my stomach into mush. so....ya. i look at dustin as if hes a pile of dog shit right now. he text me on my ( Read more... )

so...me and dustin are not talking. i think he's gone now. i think he left us. i still call his voice mail. i talk to him....but he never talks back. i think i should stop. i thought we were over this. he said he wanted to marry me and be a family with me and the baby. but all the sudden...about 3 weeks ago...he changed his mind. and now...he is ( Read more... )

so ya....it HAS been a looooong time. its been three months since ive written. im getting so much worse at this thing. but anyhoo...me and dustin are in a weird situation .. once again. we did really good and barely fought for about a month or two. then...it just got worse. and i am a stupid person that lets it keep gettin worse. i suck ( Read more... )

is he changing?...finally? i have a great opportunity. should i miss it?...and wait? would i never have it again? will he really be heartbroken? how should i tell him? would if its nothing? then will i end up with nothing? is he really really changed? how can i tell? will he hurt me once again? or is it over with? should i take a chance at ( Read more... )

soo...i had a dream that he loved someone more than he loved me. and i cried. am i scared hes going to love someone else and leave me for good? or do i want that? can i ever love someone as much as i love him? did i love the last guy as much as i love him? or was the last guy just...a phase? do i really need him in my life? does he really need me? ( Read more... )

blah blah blah blah. things are really blah. im soo fucking confuuuused. grrrrrrrr. dustin tell me what is going oooooooon!!!! :'(

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soo..dustin. my baby boys daddy and my soon to be fiance..(he liked to say) broke up with me last night. i had an appoinment for the doctor that he promised..PROMISED hed be there for. so i waited at my house for him. he never showed. so i called him. he never answered. i left to my appointment. after my appointment...i called him many MANY more ( Read more... )

ya......so me and dustin are blah once again. i dunno what to do.

so....thursday...i took my brother to a thing for him. i got home. i call dustin. hes hanging out with his friends. one of those people are his ex girlfriend. the one he compared me too. and he doesnt want to come over. then he tells me he is scared. and he doesnt want to talk about it. he just wanted to hang out with his friends. i tell him to ( Read more... )