I am a walking contradiction. i confuse myself sometimes. that being said. i know what i want and i know what i like. that will not change.

You beat it in me that part of you
But I'm going to split us back in two

i wanna talk to the folks back home ( Read more... )

i can never tell if it is fair of me to keep Will around as a friend.

sometimes i get this sense of hostility coming from him, especially around the mention of Tom.

i wish i wasn't so selfish.

fuck i am not cut out for this ( Read more... )

i have a lot of work that needs to be done by tomorrow, or rather it needed to be done last week.
i should do that.

ps.
i like how when you are accepted to college it tells you on the outside of the letter these days.

im going down. and im dragging the people i love with me. this needs to stop.
and i need to get the fuck out of here. away from everyone i know. until it is safe for me to be around people again.

i think. it all boils down. to the fact that i am weak.

fuck. my heart hurts so bad. i dont fucking know what to do. or im just not strong enough to do what is needed.
i cant fucking deal.

i really ought to learn to sleep alone.