i love my boyfriend!

im a great girlfriend!

things are great... SIMPLE

u make me feel like less of a person everytime im around you. i feel so little. i feel so dumb. i always tell myself how much i hate you but i dont, i love you. i hate how you make me feel . i hate that you dont care. i hate that i dont know what you think. im soo sick of playing this fucked up game. this back and forth.. friends.. not friends.. ( Read more... )

i have updated my journal!!!!!!!

miss you...

:(.... IM SAD

I know i really cant be mad, i mean the poor boy's got ALOT of work to do.. but it doesnt mean i cant be sad i cant see him..:(

I NEED A CAR... OR I JUST NEED TO MOVE TO PBC.. only for a few days :)

-shadi*

I DONT GET IT .. AND IF ITS THE TRUTH THAN IM DESTINED TO SETTLE.

I DONT WANT TO BE HAPPY ANMORE.. I WANT TO BE ALONE.. I WANT TO FORGET IT ALL..

I FEEL EMOTIONLESS, EMPTY, COLD, AND I JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT...BUT I KNOW I SHOULD THEREFOR I WISH I DID ( Read more... )

So im puppysitting Zacks pit Dozer and can i just say this thing is the cutest fuckin pup in the world.

IM IN LOVE.

im giving up my vices...

i have lost just about everything that i care about ... or thought i did... when i wake up you wont know me...

tonight couldnt have been worse if ... i cant even think

xoxoxo me

ITS MOMENTS LIKE THESE THAT MAKE ME WANT TO TAKE A BIG FUCKING CLUB AND BASH MY MOTHERFUCKIN HEAD IN. IM SURE IF I CAN RUMMAGE THROUGH ALL THE SKULL FRAGMENTS AND POOLS OF BLOOD ON THE FLOOR, IM BOUND TO FIND THE GAPS THAT ARE MISSING FROM MY MEMORY.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???? PLEASE, SOMEONE LET ME KNOW!!!!!!!

TODAY....

-I spent 80 bucks at Target
-My skin faded to an even paler white after my hair coloring
-I said farewell to my mother who will be embarking on a week long cruise

... three is enough for a list i guess...

GOODNIGHT