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I FEEL EMOTIONLESS, EMPTY, COLD, AND I JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT...BUT I KNOW I SHOULD THEREFOR I WISH I DID.
IM A PIECE OF SHIT CUNT OF A PERSON. IM FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD RIGHT NOW AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO FOR HELP. IS THERE HELP? IM NOT EXACTLY SURE WHAT MY PROBLEM IS, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO "GET BETTER"? I COULD GO TO A FRIEND BUT IM ALMOST AFRAID TO SAY CERTAIN THINGS OUT LOUD TO SOMEONE CAUSE IT CAN BE TAKIN THE WRONG WAY.
ITS ALMOST LIKE I FORCE EMOTIONS.. THINGS I KNOW I SHOULD FEEL. BUT SHOULDNT IT ALL FLOW NATURALLY? ITS LIKE I TALK TO MYSELF IN MY HEAD BUT IM NOT SURE WHO I AM.. AM I THE CUNT OR AM I THAT THING THAT WANTS TO BE GOOD..
WHATEVER.
IM A PIECE OF SHIT CUNT OF A PERSON. IM FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD RIGHT NOW AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO FOR HELP. IS THERE HELP? IM NOT EXACTLY SURE WHAT MY PROBLEM IS, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO "GET BETTER"? I COULD GO TO A FRIEND BUT IM ALMOST AFRAID TO SAY CERTAIN THINGS OUT LOUD TO SOMEONE CAUSE IT CAN BE TAKIN THE WRONG WAY.
ITS ALMOST LIKE I FORCE EMOTIONS.. THINGS I KNOW I SHOULD FEEL. BUT SHOULDNT IT ALL FLOW NATURALLY? ITS LIKE I TALK TO MYSELF IN MY HEAD BUT IM NOT SURE WHO I AM.. AM I THE CUNT OR AM I THAT THING THAT WANTS TO BE GOOD..
WHATEVER.