I leave for italy on saturday for all my friends who read this i want you to know I lvoe you all very much and i will miss you and indescribable amount next year. for everyone who has been there for me in the past year i want you to know i really really really appreciate everything you've done for me. for my girls who held my hand through the pain ( Read more... )

here I am on the brink of leaving for italy. leaving my friends, leaving my family, leaving my life and everything I know and love. today I drove to my grammy's house with my mother, on the way home my mother asked me if she had really been as good a mother to me as i always say she was. in truth my mother had not been that great a mother but she ( Read more... )

I've started dating this new guy. He's one of the only guys I've ever really dated aka been on more than one or two dates with who I haven't been friends with first or at least talked to/know for a while. I really like him so far, quite a lot but I'm holding back a little since I've been so hurt in the past and I'm leaving for italy in september. ( Read more... )

I just want to drop off the face of the planet

today i feel sad I wish i had someone just told hold me for a little while and tell me the world was gonna be ok.......

on a positive note my dad has offered to fund the start up of a small logo type graphic t-shirt company for me which will be awesome I think and really get me started on my way to my own boutique.

i realized something. I've become the kind of girl who doesn't really feel at ease around guys the way I use to in fact sometimes I think I'm just mean lol. I don't like when guys I don't tell me I'm hot or sexy I don't think its flattering I think its disgusting and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I laugh because I don't like it and I feel akward ( Read more... )

today's another one of those days, the sad days, the days where I feel short of breath like I'm trapped in an endless ocean of blackness. I hate the pain, hate the hurt, hate these feelings. I wait for them to pass but they are just increasingly worse. I need something familiar and there is nothing. Just someone to give me a hug to hold me for a ( Read more... )

today has been a bad day for me. nothings gone wrong or anything but i've just been so sad. I feel like i'm drowing, sinking in an endless dark ocean. I feel pressure on my chest and I'm struggling to breath. tears keep streaming down my cheeks but the pain does not cease. I keep feeling the hurt. it will pass in a few hours, a few days, maybe a ( Read more... )

I don't know what it is about today or even about this week but someting about the sequence of rencent events has made me think so much about my life. So much about everyting. I lead such a charmed life. I have amazing friends, especially the ones I've known since I was in elementary school, an awesome family, I love the people I work with, and I'm ( Read more... )

its weird when you can stop stressing over the little stuff take a breather and realize that your life is pretty much perfect