I posted this last night to da book.

Ella chilling, still judging, as she does best The breeze tonight is amazing. The cancer has caught up to her. If you remember, she had surgery July 2018 for essentially a stage 3 tumor on her paw. It came back a few months later. She's not doing good, she stopped eating about a week ago but still drinks and we ( Read more... )

Happy New Year! I'm a bit late but I've been busy. Today marks one year since I had my blood transfusions due to severe anemia. 2 blood transfusions followed by 2 rounds of iron infusion therapy in the following months and surgery May 1st to end the menses forever. My blood counts have been perfect except for my WBCs but they are always low. After ( Read more... )

Last fucked up day of this year. We have a plan that will need tweaking along the way but it's all coming together.

Jersey bound. It's been so long since I lived at home (nearly 12 years) or visited (just over 5 years).

I'm ready for new adventures.

2020 - I'm ready! 

Over the past 3 years, shit has hit the fan hard in our world. I don't know how better to explain it than that without writing a book. One negative event after another. We have pushed thru, fought, and won...that's how we roll.

This year specifically closed many very important doors.The fun part about that is new opportunities have presented ( Read more... )

Well it's offical. We have decided we are going home to Jersey in 2020. Probably 1st quarter. We have a ton to do. I've been looking at apartments in the town I'm from and it's pretty much the same with better pay and half the living space we're use to but I don't give a fuck.

The hubby and I made a decision today that we are going home. We both left in 2008 and we want to go home, to Jersey. We are going to look more north near NYC. Stay tuned as this conversation literally took place today while he was on lunch. It has been spoken into existence! 

I feel lost, alone. Which is weird because I'm married to my best friend and surrounded people. The thing people don't get is you can be married and feel lonely.  Brendon Urie says it perfectly.

"If you're a lover, you should know
The lonely moments just get lonelier
The longer you're in love
Then if you were alone."

Being unemployed has made my mind ( Read more... )

Every year you see the same new year new me bullshit. I don't partake in that shit. I just thrive to be a better person than I was the year before. It's been a very rough 3 years. It's actually been more than 3 years but the last 3 have been brutal with small dusting's of good, way too far apart from each other.

I have this weird sensation that I ( Read more... )

i feel like a spectator of the tara show. waiting and watching like everyone else to see what fucked up thing happens next. Since Jan 2017 it has been a roller coaster of horrible events lightly sprinkled here and there with good ones. im over it. i have a weird sense ive never had before, a sense of comfort if you will, that next year will be the ( Read more... )

Sorry I disappeared. I've warned that occurs with me. I'm still breathing. We are having a very hard time. I quit my toxic ass job and won unemployment, but haven't gotten money. Excuses keep arising. I can't find a job or client for my business. Too much is going on. I got a puppy for my birthday. Her name is Luna. She keeps me busy to the point ( Read more... )