i'm in a low place because every year i get to scared to actually invite people to my birthday party, but then when my birthday rolls around i get sad because i didn't do anything for my bday.

i guess i can celebrate it later, yeah?

idk if i explained this, and even i don't want to read all that shit again, but basically i'm still working in the same department but i'm working on different accounts. so when i told the senior account exec today that i was being transitioned off he was like "no!!!" and even though he was being partially facetious in his reaction he straight up ( Read more... )

so i haven't written in this for a long time and thought i should update it. should i start from the beginning? here it goes ( Read more... )

rest in peace grandma dorothy. i will always love you.

Sometimes I wish someone would call me "ugly", "fat", "stupid", etc. and mean it. There must be something wrong with me. 22 years of existence and no one has ever told me their in love with me. When I look in the mirror I try to find every flaw I can on why I am not attractive. If it's physical, is it my personality? I have friends and they all say ( Read more... )

I need a job I want out of college, not a job I can get.

I need a boyfriend to brag about, not a boyfriend who's just "there."

I need a big stash, big cash, big stash, yeah right boy I'm with that.

If you never reach for it, how will you get it?

( This year has been hectic for me and it was a challenge to stay up on what was going on in the rest of the world. This list isn't complete and was compiled in about 15 minutes. These songs were the ones that kept me connected to the rest of the world in some way. They're not in order either. I do listen to more than just pop music ok!!! )

I am a first generation college student. I was born and raised in Los Angeles, the valley more specifically, and I have not always been a successful student. Before college, I did not have a very positive self concept. I did not have a clear idea of where I wanted to be in my life and my career. Looking back, I had a really tough time because there ( Read more... )

I'm always so reluctant to exclaim my joy because I don't want to jinx myself ( Read more... )

i don't know why it's taken 22 years to break out of my shell, but it's cracking slowly. and i have a lot of people to thank for that. a lot ( Read more... )