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verasteine

Negative Spoons Day

Aug 05, 2012 11:15

On the outside, I'm just like other people. This makes my life harder sometimes, because on the inside, I am not. I live with a few illnesses and mental health problems, and they limit my spoonsThe funny thing about having limited spoons is that people who live an ordinary, reasonably healthy life don't ever have to think about counting them ( Read more... )

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gwalchmai345 August 5 2012, 17:59:57 UTC

(((((big hugs)))))

I hear you. Fandom is my safe place because I can be normal here, to some degree. I can be who I am inside. I do understand how it's like to be different, because I don't think there's any part of my life that could be considered "normal". I've never been able to function in a normal way and I've never been healthy. I'm mortally afraid of things other people wouldn't even think about twice. There's exactly one person in my life who knows all about me and is still able to accept me, though it's really hard for both of us sometimes.

I usually avoid talking about any of this, because I don't want to risk the one safe place I have, and because I simply don't like talking about all the crap in my life. But, after reading your post, I just wanted to say I understand. I know how it is to feel tired all the time and to have to fight to be able to do things that aren't any challenge at all for other people (or not be able to do them at all, not matter how much you want to or how hard you try). *hugs*

verasteine August 6 2012, 10:27:17 UTC

I always want to do more than I actually can. I've learned to accept that there are always things dropping off the list, but I'd like to be more like other people some days. So I hear you, and thank you.

nytetyger August 5 2012, 22:00:33 UTC

Sending lots and lots of mental hugs and hope and light...

I hope you have a so much better day tomorrow

::wishing I had more spoons of my own to loan out::

verasteine August 6 2012, 10:30:39 UTC

I have the week off, as of today, so I'm going to do some slow recovering.

Thank you.

thrace_adams August 6 2012, 01:20:20 UTC

This is one of the best explanations of the spoon theory I've read outside of the original article. *HUGS* I wish you more spoons bb.

verasteine August 6 2012, 10:32:07 UTC

Thank you. I'm sure I'll recover, I have some time off now.

irisbleufic August 6 2012, 04:23:52 UTC

I'm tired, and I have to count my spoons.

*hugs*

This post is...what I would have said if I could articulate what it's like, I'm pretty sure. You nailed it. Having limited spoons to begin with is hard, and having situations kick in that put you badly into negative-spoons territory is...terrifying.

My negative spoons cost me my part-time job; not the end of the world right now, I guess, when compared to everything else, but no money of my own for the time being will be quite irritating. I do envy you being on your own and self-supporting. Ever since that was taken from me and the boy, I find myself genuinely wondering if we'll ever have it again.

verasteine August 6 2012, 10:34:35 UTC

It's that moment where you wake up, and you think about the things you need to do, not just what you'd like or want to do, but stuff you need to do, and go, "how am I going to manage even that?"

You will have it again. It might take a long time and I know it's hard to cling to that idea, but it will happen. Things will change. I read your journal, even if I don't always comment; hang in there, hon. *hugs*