Hey all my readers

[velvet_mace]

I love you all, you are so wonderful and patient with me and my slooow updating. You've put up with my errors and lack of brit picking. And you've left me such wonderful comments, I just can't explain how happy as a writer you've made me feel

Comments

[vikotan]

I like all of your fics I've read. :3 I wish I could handle this as maturely as you do - whenever someone gets upset over my writing I just feel depressed, but that is mostly because it has happened a lot.

[tashilover]

Yikes, I'mma one of those peeps who had said 'I felt sick' while reading some of your stuff. But I just want it to be known that I LOVE the fact that I feel sick. Because it just doesn't fucking happen, and I can easily count on one hand how many stories (both fanfic and non-fanfic) have actually made my stomach clench. If I hated what you wrote, I would've stopped reading a long time ago.

I don't know my actual boundaries, but I'm not afraid to test them. And I'm glad to know you're willing to listen to criticism.

Just so you know, Chameleon has never made me literally vomit. (Have others actually said that?) And I've read Sherlock!Cannibalism fics. Hell, I'm from the Supernatural fandom, and we're fucking crazy over there. I fucking LOVE Chameleon and I squeal- literally- each time you do update.

[anonymous]

While its unfortunate that some people have been upset by things in your stories (Damn triggers...if only you didn't exist!), you do give warnings (while some don’t; thanks for that!) so…I’m not seeing what else you can do. I’m not sure why anyone would blame you for any sort of negative reaction they had to your writing (again, the warnings are there for a reason) as no one is forcing them to read it, but I hope it hasn’t upset you too much. As you point out, they should be able to take care of themselves, and if something isn’t their cup of tea they shouldn’t read it. No one should pressure you to change your writing to please them either; you start doing that and how are you going to get any enjoyment out of it? I imagine it would feel like a chore, and why would you continue writing if that were the case

[velvet_mace]

Oh man, I wish triggers didn't exist, too. They are awful. But triggers by their very nature are incredibly personal, completely tied to an individuals experience, and really not something a writer can anticipate. I think it's unfortunate that fandom has been abusing the term, because it muddles the issue.

However, a lot of people can be upset by something without having PSTD. And it's a good thing for them to be self aware and mindful of what they read, because man, it sucks to have a terrible reading experience. To the extent I can, I warn, but that's pretty much the only thing I can do to accommodate and still be true to my own writing.

But I really need my readers to take some responsibility for their own reading as well, instead of expecting others to do it for them.

[velvet_mace]

I think it's a mistake for writers to write what they don't like. It seems like the way to get attention and appreciation, but in the end, it turns writing into a chore. Though it's nice to challenge yourself, the challenge should be one you can enjoy.

[wit_worry_what]

Hey! I kinda stumbled onto your works a couple of months ago, and then devoured it. It's amazing because some kinky stories don't provide real characters, and you do. I can relate to John or Sherlock and see how they interact and what their motivations are rather than, "And then he hit him because he's kinky." So, yeah, kudos on being awesome

[velvet_mace]

Having characters with real believable motivation is really important to me. I really try hard to do that in my stories. I kind of build their characters up from their bones: What are their needs, their fears, their insecurities, their dreams. What makes them happy, what is their personal philosophy and outlook. Then whenever I put them into a situation I know which way they'll jump and their actions stay consistent.

As for what I can handle and what I can't -- it changes for me. There are some times in my life when I can handle a lot more violence than at other times. Some times schmoop makes me happy and other times it makes me angry. I'm certainly guilty of venting about it. But it's not the writer's fault for writing something that hit my irritable spots, and I'm trying to keep my venting to appropriate venues and not making it personal.