"As you float the flimsy surface
You should know life lies beneath it
Don't pretend you feel what I feel for you
Live illusion and I am real..."

all you have to do is think about it. and you will know...

I am not in the best of moods right now. But I guess I will have to deal with the cards that I am delt. I did write some more poems however. I guess that is a good thing. Most brilliant writers have their bad days. I just use my depression to my advantage, when I have the opportunity. I wonder what Voltaire would say to that. Oh well. It may sound ( Read more... )

"I can't find, oh the right romantic line ( Read more... )

And if she runs away she fears she won't be followed ( Read more... )

i hate school. i really don't feel like going today. i am really tired. i tried to go to bed earlier, but i couldn't sleep, once again ( Read more... )

god, i am so tired. i did get like almost 2 hrs of sleep. i had one nightmare, but it wasn't the really horrible ones. it was a mild nightmare, if u care to stand the oxymoron. well, i an so tired right now, and i am really tired. guess what? i'm tired. how surprising, by the amount of sleep i have been getting. i need to sleep more, hopefully ( Read more... )

she promised me that she would come back online to talk to me. but its getting closer to midnight, and she still isn't online. i was hoping she could make me feel better, so i could try and get some sleep. its so frustrating to need her like this ( Read more... )

"tell me all of your dreams ( Read more... )

it seems to me that all of my so called friends have somewhere to go. i mean annie and kelsey are off on college exploring trips, something that i used to look forward too. but since my mother won't let me go where i want to go, much less apply, i have nothing to look foreward to. everyone has their own agenda, one that is so much better than mine ( Read more... )

my life has become one huge oxymoron. I am dead but still alive. i wish i were dead, then finally people can get on with their lives. and i can finally be me. without judgements, without pain, without fear. I need to learn to love myself so i can survive, but how can I??? I cant learn to if no one is willing to love me and teach me how to love ( Read more... )