all i can do is just sit and get angry and fusterated myself for everything. why do i blame myself though? this wasn't my fault, i didn't make him spend all of his money!! so why do i feel responsible for it? did i not try hard enough to make him stop? god i just wish this would all go away. i want to marry someone who is special, has a nice ( Read more... )

all i can do is just sit and get angry and fusterated myself for everything. why do i blame myself though? this wasn't my fault, i didn't make him spend all of his money!! so why do i feel responsible for it? did i not try hard enough to make him stop? god i just wish this would all go away. i want to marry someone who is special, has a nice ( Read more... )

the reason for him getting his stuff together is b/c he isn't financially ready to be in a committed relationship but much less get married, so that's why we are broken up. but the more i discuss it and get more advice from others, i don't think david will ever get his finances completely together, i mean it won't just take a week or so to prove to ( Read more... )

it really hurts. i try so hard to keep up a strong face and attitude during the day, and then i get home and just break down. i hate this! my heart has been almost ripped into piece now b/c of this, and the worst part of it all is that i just went along with it. and even though we are hoping to get back together, i still am a mess. i can't breathe ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend has been basically a weekend from hell. david and i are broken up with intentions of getting back together. now to explain what happened. on wednesday night david calls me and tells me that he has bounced 5 checks and very important checks that i find out about later on. well he "suggested" that we should break up and i asked him ( Read more... )

ok, so here's the update...i've been accepted into Columbus State University and have already applied for housing, so it's offical. i'm going to college. i have straight A's right now and trying to exempt all my finals so i won't have to take them which would be wonderful. david came last weekend and i ended up spending the night on saturday which ( Read more... )

well like most couples this weekend, they will have a romantic evening with their loved ones, where as for me...i am engaged to the best man...my superhero, and fiance, but i will be alone this valentine's day weekend. it always seems to work out that i'm alone on valentine's day. even though with an expection for this valentine's day, i'm not " ( Read more... )

Well Friday came, Saturday flew by, and Sunday went. I hope that all weekends aren't like that one. It was beautiful though! I really did enjoy the sunshine. Lately I have been very depressed because the man of my dreams, whom I love with all my heart, has not been with me in almost a month! I miss him so much that it literally kills me! If you ( Read more... )

ok so David comes home to me in 9 days! I'm so excited I think I might cry! it's been so long since i have seen him that i'm going bonkers just thinking about him being here. it kinda scares me in the fact that i might get too excited and make some bad choices but i have been thinking and debating in my head and discussing it with others who have ( Read more... )

right now im in school, 2nd period which is trig! ugh! talk about torture! i had to take 2 midterms today which was trig and political systems. political systems wasn't bad but trig was terrible! i know i failed, but oh well. i know i can do better after this! plus the midterm in trig is only counted as a test grade so it really doesn't matter to ( Read more... )