Crying everyday of class, going home sick from a stomach virus, not being able to breathe through my nose, playing Nintendo with my brother and mother, and forgetting my coat at recess and freezing, unable to ask to go get my coat.

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Probably 5th grade. I finally was ready for elementary school and getting used to how things were run. I did well in class and had friends. I wasn't bullied and was generally accepted for being weird (I was in a weird hippie phase back then). I really liked my teacher, too. This was also a little before my father went totally crazy. And ( Read more... )

236: what was your most memorable summer?

I'm not sure... Probably one of my early childhood summers where I did a lot with my family (parties, Disney World, etc.)

237: who from Full House do you relate to most?

Probably Danny Tanner (the father). I'm obsessive myself.

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I'd probably be disappointed that I never finished school (I don't even have a GED -- I was eventually homeschooled/tutored and was accepted into colleges more based on my SAT/ACT scores). I never got a job, let alone a good or interesting one. I developed mental illness that caused me a lot of pain. Things would never be fixed with my father. ( Read more... )

Probably something like "I Can't Get Next to You" by the Temptations. I was only allowed to listen to older music.

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230: what is your favorite memory from before the school age.

Age 2 and a few months, at my father's best friend's house for a party for his daughter's fifth birthday party. There were fireflies and country music playing from the garage. It was night and most people had left. I was standing in the driveway. I felt happy and at peace.

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Dear (me),
Enjoy every moment of life. Try not to take school so seriously. Just because people don't understand you and abuse/bully you doesn't mean you are bad. You are intelligent, just autistic with a peculiar brain. Life will get more difficult, but you will live through those difficulties.

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It may sound strange, since I disowned him at age 13 and have PTSD because of him, but I miss my father. I have been coming across things online that I think he would find funny. He laughed a lot. And I miss the good memories with him, such as at Disney World. He was very charming and could be a lot of fun. I know he was in a lot of pain and ( Read more... )

I was very happy in my early childhood until I started Kindergarten (age 5-6). Though I was still quite happy then -- just not in school. I didn't really have anxiety and loved my parents, even if they were sometimes abusive. I spent a lot of time drawing and watching cartoons. I played outside and was very attached to the neighborhood children ( Read more... )

I miss the wonderful cartoons and children's programs I used to watch as a child. I feel most programs today can't compare (but I'm biased). I watched a lot of television as a child and I think it actually inspired my imagination. I'm glad some of these programs are out on dvd, but some aren't (like The Elephant Show, Dumbo's Circus, and Welcome ( Read more... )