At 3am this morning I had smoked a pack of smokes, played twister, got paper balls thrown down my shirt, and thinking of staying up pretty much the rest of the night since I had been up at 5:45am. You where at the airport bording a flight home. I hope you figure out what it is that you want. Dont worry about me, Ill be fine....for the most part.

the older i get the more complacated shit gets. Life was so much easier when you were 8 and boys had kooties. Now there are bills and money and repairs on the house and the car and sex and AIDS oh, and then come the relationships. Why cant it just be easy, and boys still had kooties?

the days seem to be morphing into one another..work, home, sleep, work, home, go out, make out, sleep, work....etc....
life isn't exactly making the most sense right now.

I went out last night thinking that I would have a fun time...go to the kareoke bar then to the Ale House run into some awsome people...but that never happened. Dana was suppose to meet me at the bar and then go out. She never called, nothing...now I am pissed. This is twice that this has happened. I cover for her so she doesnt have to tell her ( Read more... )

so I have givin it much consideration...and I think I may have a new room mate or two...its still up in the air. I have to admit I am kinda excited!!!

I have now developed a fear of never finding love again due to all the stupid ass shit I get myself in to!

Thursday, Dana and I are going to go out...now I know that this is going to sound juvinal, but it must be done. The plan is to go to the Ale House($5 buckets)and "bump" into Brad. Even if he isnt there I am sure there will be somebody...

Dana is back from New York and all is right with the world once again....anyway, i did what I told myself I would not do....i called Brad last night, there was no answer, and that can only mean one thing...either he didnt want to talk to me or he just didnt answer, which he is prone to doing. I really dont know where to go with this. You are ( Read more... )

last night was...blah...got home from work and found out that all my friends went to new york for the weekend...without me. Oh well, maybe next time...my hair is straight today, may be ill make it last untill sunday...

love is both
ecstasy and agony-
longingness and loneliness-
freedom and imprisonment...
its what pulls us together
when it tares us apart <3