Comments | ubiquitousmixie: i don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

ubiquitousmixie

i don't want to fall another moment into your gravity

Dec 11, 2008 01:42

Imagine, if you can, being in love with someone. Imagine that this person is someone you know to be wrong for you, to be your complete opposite. This person's weaknesses have hurt you beyond measure and yet, for all intents and purposes, this is still the person with whom you are painstakingly in love. You go to bed at night, still feeling like ( Read more... )

relationship, love, emo

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ellipsisoveruse December 11 2008, 07:10:25 UTC

Oh, my darling girl. I am wrapping you in such a big, big hug, and I hate that I can't be there to give it to you in person. My heart is breaking to read this. I hate that you're feeling like this, and I wish more than anything in the world that I could take it all away from you. Please remember that I'm always here for you - no matter when, no matter what - I'm never more than a phone call away. I love you, my Mrs D. xxx

kitnkabootle December 11 2008, 15:28:28 UTC

As am I, D.

grdnofevrythng December 26 2008, 19:16:03 UTC

And…imagine that she finally wants to gather the courage to come out to mom and dad and introduce her girlfriend to the family. Imagine how it feels to not be the one that made her want to do that. Try, really try, to remember how much time you put into developing relationships with her parents, how you genuinely care about them, and to know that you'll forever be the secret that they won't know. You'll just be the quiet friend with the unmatching socks.OMG! I think I might cry. My gf isn't out and we're having this particular problem and probably will for a while. I know things will probably turn out like they have for you and just the idea of it kills me. She makes me wish for a lot of things. She makes me want to be happy, but I can't forget the issues. This being a major one. That she'll want me to remain a secret and I will finally not be able to deal with ( ... )

ubiquitousmixie December 27 2008, 23:17:50 UTC

i definitely do know how you feel...i wish you didn't have to go through that. it's unbearable. i hope it doesn't turn out the way it did for me. being a secret because your gf isn't ready to come out is tough work. my first relationship lasted for three years and she didn't come out to her parents until a year after we broke up. it was SO hard, to the point where i had to "de-gay" myself and the dorm room we shared because she refused to even have them suspect that we could have been a couple. it's so suffocating - it makes you feel like there's something to be ashamed of. and the unfortunate part of it is that you can't rush someone's coming it...it has to be on her terms, and having to be in the shadows while she works up the courage is very hard ( ... )