Expressing my feelings through writing has always seemed to help. This journal entry is going to be nothing but whats going on through my brain and heart: I have been hurt before, but this time the knife has gone into my heart, and twisted. For me everything could not have been better. I was the happiest I have ever been. I had everything that I ( Read more... )

Oh life. Why did you have to go and screw me again? What do i do now? Where do I go? Do I stay here? If I did stay here I'd prolly drive myself insane...but then I could be near her, and maybe one day things will be back to how they were. Do I move to Las Vegas? I've never been so far from home. But I am 26 now, but I am still scared. How could i ( Read more... )

i am so fucking pissed right now. i feel so used. i fucking hate this shit. i had life figured out. or so i thought. how could i have trusted a word that she said? all lies. all the shit that i fucking did? for what? nothing!

I've been dating this girl for the past year and nine months, i guess you could say that. She seemed to break up with me every 3 months or so. After a few weeks she would say that she got scared, and that she loved me more than anything, and that she wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her life with me. Time after time she would break up ( Read more... )

i am so bummed how everything turned out. everything was going so good. just like every other time.

so my little sis is watching some teen show on teen nick and what is going in the show you may ask??? well it's a break up scene with the dood telling the girl how beautiful she is, and how much he loves her, but he can't be with her cuz they have nothing in common. wow ain't the story of my life. but in my life, it's jill breaking up with me ( Read more... )

Take care Kalamazoo. you have given me an awesome 4 years.

Adam Cox in Kalamazoo signing off.

odds are, i'll be moving back to MKG at the end of april. i fucking hate muskegon. it's like a sink hole. people who think MKG is cool, are actually lame. you may think, why is he moving back it he hates it so much...well the answer is, it's just temporarily. i won't be there past summer ( Read more... )

I ordered my new bike yesterday, and it should be here tomorrow. i'm pretty stoked. since i am going to be racing for the Breakaway Mountain Bike Team this spring/summer, i decided that i should get a new bike. Also, this is my last few months/summer working at breakaway (depending on how long it takes me to find a real job), and there is going to ( Read more... )

I keep the bible in a pool of blood so none of its lies can affect me
~Slayer.