I figured it out, whats been bugging me, well i know its not all of it, but its a huge part, the most important part. I've lost you. you may say i havent and make up excuses, but its true, believe it or not. I have no idea what happened, and i dont understand why. i dont blame you at all, please dont read this and get aggravated and talk to someone ( Read more... )

Im feeling really weird...somethings not right, and i really wish i could figure it out. And know who or what it is thats making me this way, i feel blank, nothing matters, but then again it matters so much. I guess ill write later theres no point in rambling on about nothing...but if its nothing, why is it causing so much destruction?....<3jeska!

i <3 blue hair!!!!! on the tony hawk game at vees house both my peoples have blue hair! and if i ever get enough balls and quit bein a scared little bitch! (lol) i will definetly die it blue!!!! <3jeska!

Questions:...was it really as good as i thouht it was? Ive been asking myself that for a while. All of our laughter and tears, long talks and our other silly bullshit, Ive sat back and really thought about if it mattered at all, or was it just a game? was this something i made out to be so good and then got dissapointed, or are you really the ( Read more... )

i wish you knew how much you meant to me, i would be lost if you ever went away, im so sorry for making you resent me so much, i wish i could go back to the moment when you lost all your respect for me. i know you love me because im your sister, but i need you to love me for me, be able to talk to me like im your friend, and me go places with you ( Read more... )

im having a realy good day, were just all sitting at vee's house, and were just sitting here, and PODIES HERE!!! i luv all you guys so much, thanx for being here for me...this is another one of those moments of simplicity i was talkin about...xoxjeska!

im so sorry, im not sure for what yet, but i know how ive changed...and i dont like it, i dont like the place where im at, where im trapped, i feel like i cant breathe, but im so happy when yall can see me. that fake smile, actually its not fake...i just push all my emotion back, im scared for the world to see my faults, because i know that i have ( Read more... )

this is from gabbys journal, i dont know if she wrote it, but i liked it alot so im posting it ( Read more... )

yesterday we were all sitting outside of the mall watching some guy get arrested when i looked back at all the people sitting in our secluded circle and it was like the rest of the world was pushed back, and all i saw was yall laughing, and talking to each other... and i realized that moments like that are what make this struggle so worthwhile. We ( Read more... )

i dont understand why you of all people have so much power over me, the one person i dont listen to and almost always do the opposite of what he says has so much of an impact on me everyday...its becacuse i let you, i let you tower over me, and i always bow down, i may fight for a while but in the end you win, and im left sucking my thumb...im ( Read more... )