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[twiztid_fare_e]

i dont understand why you of all people have so much power over me, the one person i dont listen to and almost always do the opposite of what he says has so much of an impact on me everyday...its becacuse i let you, i let you tower over me, and i always bow down, i may fight for a while but in the end you win, and im left sucking my thumb...im terrified of you, not for beating me, ive never been physically abused, but emotionally, thats different, you make me feel so small, and im always wrong, just because im different, not like you excpected, im sorry for who i am when im around you, i have so many things i need to say, but i cant say them to you ive always been scared to tel you how i feel because when i do you yel at me like im a man on the street your fighting with, you seem to forget im not, im supposed to be your little girl...you apologize for yelling like that, and for making me cry so much, for making me rethink me, but it never changes, youll yell again 10 min later...its a never ending cycle, i wish sometimes you would hit me , that would be easier, i could take a punch beter than those stabing words, words that cut me so deep, those wounds will never fully heal, ill have huge scars to carry on my heart for the rest of eternity..
The worst part of this is i cant escape you, ever, if i left i would always look back and there you'd be, if i stay and one day you pass, ill have memories of that face you make...those hurtful words you yell...youll always make me feel like im not good enough...and the bad thing is... i love you...