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Frail
The heart feels a spectrum of emotions of its own flavors, it constricts and flexes throughout different events along the course of the day. Right now the stone on it is taking so much of me to feel alright at all.
Feeling so bad for being such a burden such a big baby I just want to disappear. I need to stop feeling so vulnerable every month.
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Motivational monologue
These months have been a struggle where the days are filled with tears and accusations on my part. It's back and forth and back and forth, but I suppose I found smth worth fighting for. In any case, the feelings make this even more real so I really can't deny it. I just hope that yes, everything will be well ( Read more... ) -
Fleeting
Feeling my heart constrict a little tonight. Just caught up with a good friend, had an awesome meetup with a group of friends and also lost a good friend along the week. Sometimes I just don't know how to keep up with all the people in my life. There's always a point whr you're thr and the other person isn't or vice versa, and we're all too ( Read more... ) -
Stress
I do not wish to complain everyday and sulk or look tired all the time, but this is the way I deal with all the brutal forces pushing me down. When I look back at the so-called rat race in A Levels and O Levels, I start to think that they are nothing in the face of every semester in university. How do I even begin to explain the workload and all? ( Read more... ) -
Fight
Am I glad I document my thoughts and feelings in such a place so that I keep track of whr I'm heading to. Each time I just want to call it a night, I look at these promises I made to myself and down to those endless paragraphs I bury myself in.
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Counting
At the end of it all, all these struggles of my feelings are made so redundant because I can't fight what my heart is telling me.
These little gestures are so well integrated that sometimes they are taken for granted. So back to the start, when I am simply thankful for all the moments we share.
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Year 2
So I say, this Sem's going to be so good that I'm going to know what the hell is going on in every class. That means dragging myself out of bed now :)
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tired?
How long will I stay like this, if I'm getting nothing out of this anymore? There are things that I don't question, that I never have to question. Yet there are also cracks that are always there. I've come to realize that people's attitude towards yourself actually stems from your own behavior. If you think the whole world is wrong about treating ( Read more... ) -
Rage
Life's been looking up this week, two short getaways just before the new semester starts! Actually, I'm feeling rather useless for bumming around everyday (though I can't say I don't enjoy it), but well I am looking forward to studying again. I just hope I don't regret what I'm saying now (shit, I just know I will). I want to work hard though, I ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
hurting too much today, what do I do now what do I do this fall is getting quite bad