Stress
I do not wish to complain everyday and sulk or look tired all the time, but this is the way I deal with all the brutal forces pushing me down. When I look back at the so-called rat race in A Levels and O Levels, I start to think that they are nothing in the face of every semester in university. How do I even begin to explain the workload and all? It's week 3 and I feel so defeated already, yet it's only going to get worse. How have I grown to become so weak, and so ready to give up on these tests of strengths. Only too ready to go into hiding and hoping these obstacles will miraculously disappear. But I know if I run, or do a shoddy job, at the end of the day the lack of hard work and tenacity will reflect on a lousy transcript. Sometimes I am too full of fluff and nothing substantial, but where do I find spaces to fill myself up with substance. I am too ambitious, with all the dreams and interests I want to fulfill but do I really have what it takes to achieve them. I start to doubt myself in moments of struggles like this, it would really be great if I could get rid of this fatigue. But I am only human, and how do I not feel like crap when I am so burnt out every single day, my goals only get shorter and shorter, smaller and smaller.
But I know I am so much more capable than this. Sometimes I just need afirmation, not a steep hill to climb; sometimes I just want to have it easier and just be good at smth.
Well this stress needs to be channelled into smth useful now!
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