The rest of this past November had some amazing highs and ridiculous lows. I cut things off sexually with Andrew but we remain friendly. Matt and I finally ended up meeting in person the weekend after Thanksgiving to talk everything out. Things were going well for the following two weeks..we talked every day and hooked up a few times until I ( Read more... )

So we were done. I switched my gym schedule and stopped following him on Instagram since I couldn't bear to see his daily posts. Everyone assumes that whoever initiates the breakup is just fine and the person who is broken up with is the only sufferer. That may be true sometimes, who knows. I seem to always be the one to do the dirty work. I went ( Read more... )

My goal was to write at least one entry per month and boy did that not happen at all. The days have flown by and I've been lucky lately to have friends to turn to for therapy when I need it but I think I need to be my own therapy as well. Not everyone wants to hear everything and that's where writing comes into play ( Read more... )

New Year's was unremarkable but satisfactory in its own way. Sean and I spent a few hours drinking coffee and then wine, talking about life. A few days after that I saw Zack for the last time (so far) and it. was. so. good. He came over in the middle of the night and we watched Chapelle and had sex. He stayed the night and then I haven't heard from ( Read more... )

Yesterday was an odd day. After months of some back and forth shit with the former co-worker (Zack), I finally decided that since I kept coming back to him maybe I should just give in and try to have something. As much as I love being single and not having to answer to anyone I miss the closeness of being with someone. The good sex. The sweet ( Read more... )

The day after my last post I ran an 18 mile trail run in Reading. Placed second in my age group and was overall stoked about how the day had gone even though the last few miles found me mentally exhausted. Ron texted me later that day asking how the race had gone and we had a brief back and forth session. That was the last time I heard from him. I ( Read more... )

Last night I went out on a date with a former co-worker. We had hibachi and went out drinking afterwards. We had good conversation, I enjoyed myself, got pretty drunk, we walked home, I gave him a hug, and that was that. I was planning on making out with him all week and then didn't. I guess I just wasn't feeling it. He is a little too young for me ( Read more... )

So the week after that whole Ron fiasco, things were back on track. Had a solid week of work, a nice visit with my older brother and his wife and kid, and placed second female in the Nescopeck 10k. That was just a good day in general since after the race Sean and I had a wandering lunch downtown. We went to the Greek Festival, did a hard cider ( Read more... )

I showed up to Ron's house at 5:30. We sat around and talked for awhile like usual before hopping in his truck and heading off to dinner. We ended up at the Riegelsville Inn again for a nice glass of wine and some salad. Sitting across from him at the corner table and I couldn't help but think how good he looked in his ripped jeans and nicely ( Read more... )

The rest of the week went by super fast. I was happy with what I got done at work for the exception of Friday but what can you do. I tried. Friday night was grocery shopping and early bedtime since I had to be up early to race Saturday. Ended up not getting much sleep that night anyway. I never seem to be able to sleep a consistent amount of hours ( Read more... )