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Dear Consistently Unhelpful Bank Teller,
I think your problem is a lack of sympathy or empathy and not that you have control issues that cause you to misuse the tiny amount of power you've been given. Perhaps you have ideas about me and my situation that affect the way you treat me. You will never know what it is like to be me or have the conditions that I have, and I would not wish such ( Read more... ) -
Fast Accidents
It's 5pm and my stomach hurts before I realize that not only did I not eat breakfast like Steven told me I should, I also skipped lunch. Even though I was hungry and tired by the time we got to my house, I didn't have anything. Now waves of nausea roll over me and I breathe evenly until they go away because there won't be anything to throw up if ( Read more... ) -
Talk it out
One rather large difference between my sister and I is that I am a hedonist and she is a moralist. This is becoming more apparent as we have more conversations that consist of her explaining to me that the things I like are wrong.
Out of politeness I don't usually tell her about my proclivities. It isn't that she's saying outright, "I know what you ( Read more... ) -
Alt
I wish Neil Hilborn paid attention to Zack Galifinakis, because if he did pay attention he'd know that Galifinakis is a great alternative comedian. A comedian friend says to me, "I hate alt comedy. A guy did a bit on amateur night where he just fiddled with setting up the mic for half his set." We're both familiar with the Reggie Watts bit where he ( Read more... ) -
Why do girls... Draft
Why do girls go for bad boys?
Girls that go for "bad boys" only do so when they think the bad boy is a good guy with a tough exterior. You can't tell a person's character immediately. All you have are the clues that they present during your interactions. So when a guy is rough around the edges or comes across as antisocial, but opens up when they're ( Read more... ) -
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Right now I feel fucking amazing. Last night we made poppy seed tea. It made me feel calm and relaxed, and a tiny bit inebriated. It was mild and mostly like soaking in a long warm bath. I just felt like I was the most physically comfortable I had ever been. Laying down and feeling the body sensations as opposed to looking for the mind high was the ( Read more... ) -
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This isn't how I want to end up but that's kind of the point. -
Trip
I want to embrace spirituality but feel like I've cut off my ability to have spiritual experiences through years of adamant nonbelief. So I think that drugs are the way to get over that block, in addition to generally being more openminded. Tripping is when I feel the most connected, and I think that tripping out in various forms is an important ( Read more... ) -
Reconnect
Girl wants to be friends again. What does that even mean? Long ago I called, we chatted, it was a good time. Yet she was upset that I didn't acknowledge the past. She was upset that I didn't try harder to keep in touch. I could use the excuse that I think people don't care about me when I don't see them, but she's told me that she does. I think ( Read more... ) -
Heartless
At this point I know I'm in the wrong but I just don't want to be around her anymore. Do regular people break up with their friends? I keep thinking about my introductory interview before group therapy, when the woman asked me if I had lost any friends lately. I did have a recent falling out, I said. It was a symptom and not a cause, I thought. ( Read more... )