Someone recently asked me when was the last time I bought an album. She did not want an answer, she was just trying to prove a point, a valid point but I suppose it backfired because I do buy and listen to albums in their entirety. The last few albums I bought even included two vintage vinyl albums. This does not make me special, if anything, it ( Read more... )

I am losing, if it matters, if it makes a difference. I I could have one thing I the world it would be a body I did not constantly hate and fight, stuff or starve, beat or be beaten by. Now out of the blue it occours to me that maybe that whole lovi g my body thing is really about my mind. Maybe this war is not really with my body, maybe my body ( Read more... )

What? How do you do that? Sometimes I feel like everything that is wrong with me starts with MY BODY. I can not even begin to imagine what it feels like to love my body. I have been in an outright WAR with this vessel since I was a child. How on earth am I supposed to put the guns down and love. I do not think there is hope, what am I going ( Read more... )

or the lack thereof is becoming my worst problem. I just got a new to me exercise bike, it needs some basic maintenance and then it is good to go. I can't seem to get to tkd class, always missing it because of work or exhaustion or some form of debilitating anxiety. I hate it when I get like this. I am trying to get it under control. I am ( Read more... )

There is too much stuff going on for me to put it all into perspective. Things are starting to get crazy busy and also crazy in my head, it seems the more I try to get myself in order the worse things get. I am not sure I can afford to keep the help I have but if I don't things might fall apart, I am not really sure what to do. As I get more and ( Read more... )

I like to spend tome alone. When I choose not to be around people and I rather be around dogs is, of course, when people think it is ok to visit unannounced. I do NOT like to have my alone time interrupted. What worse is they have no shame and were even bringing another person with them...someone I have only met once. Uhm NO. Cleary she does ( Read more... )

Life is good as usual, although my temporary feelings of inadequacy are always something I fight, I do see that the fights gets easier the longer I stay strong. Regardless, it is always a fight, sometimes I like a good fight ( Read more... )

I think too much. I often feel like the people around me do not actually like me at all, but are just dealing with me until the can rid themself of my pressance. It seems silly when I write it down, so maybe I am just a little crazy and nerotic. I often wish I did not care, that way I could stop worrying about it. I am trying to distance myself ( Read more... )

After making some pretty major changes to how I work, I think things will get better. Today I am wicked sore, and I hate that I can not just eat like a normal person. Allergies suck so bad. The dogs are good.

Contrary to my last post, a recent client came to me an apologized for not trusting me enough to actually try what I suggested to help her dog.. . now that she has tried it and it worked she has really started to blossom with her dog. I Am so happy for them I could cry. So although I sometimes find my job very frustrating, it is very rewarding ( Read more... )