YamaJima Part III
Title : Love Lust and Loss
Pairing : YamaJima
Rating : PG 13
Genre : Angst , Romance
Summary : When you can’t hold your feelings anymore.
Warning : BOYxBOY
Part I | Part II
“...I’ll wait you tomorrow at Tokyo station...” Yuto stares Ryosuke’s eyes deeply as he talk to the person. Ryosuke lost his words after hearing about it.
Everything that happens to them and their family start to strike his thought. In one single force he manages to push the tall guy away from him.
“No. We can’t do this! ”
Ryosuke brush off his own tears and facing his back towards Yuto.
“We’re wrong Yuto..w-we are brothers...I-I’m your brother..”
Yuto walked closer to Ryosuke and wrapped his arms around the latter’s waist.
“I don’t want you as my brother, Ryosuke. Why can’t you see it?”
The firm hug sent him a thousand of sparks but he need to stop the feelings. Pushing the thought away, Ryosuke remove the grip and distant himself from Yuto.
“I-I can’t love you like what you want it to be...” He lied to Yuto.
Ryosuke knew that he hurt Yuto the moment he told that lies. But it hurt him more to tell the lies. He scared to loves the person. So many things had happen just because of their act. Losing his patience, Yuto then grab Ryosuke shoulder and push the latter against the wall.
“Why are you denying it!?! You love me and I can feel it! Why are you so scared to admit it?!”
“Because we are wrong, Yuto...We can’t love...it’s wro-
His words once again being cut by the younger. Tears leaked from his eyes as Yuto silenced him with his lips.
After the short lips locked, Yuto then pull himself away. He stares Ryosuke eyes deep before he talked.
“I‘ll be at Tokyo Station tomorrow...if you didn’t come...all of this will ended..and you’ll never gonna see me again...”
That was the last words that Ryosuke heard from Yuto before the latter walk and leave him. He doesn’t even get to replied it since his drive already saw him. Along his way back to his house, Ryosuke can’t stop his mind from thinking about Yuto’s words. Everything scares him. One thing that he sure and he doesn't want it to happen is to lose the latter.
~o~o~o~
‘Let’s run away from them...I’ll wait you at Tokyo station tomorrow..’
Those words keep on repeating on his mind. Ryosuke tightly close his eyes and released a heavy sighs. The teacher were explaining something about calculus yet he never listen to it. Ryosuke open his eyes as soon as he heard the sound of the bell. All of the student stood up and bowed their head to the teacher before the teacher leave the classroom. Ryosuke glance his wristwatch and it shows almost 3 o’clock, he still have 9 hours before the day end. Most of the students already leave the classroom. Slowly, he took his bag and leaved.
‘Why are you denying it!?! You love me and I can feel it! Why are you so scared to admit it?!’
He was busy with his thought and didn’t realize other student was running on the corridor. He fall down the floor as the student accidentally bump him. His elbow scratched the rough floor and it caused a cut on it. Ryosuke hissed in pain as he touch it. The student doesn’t even care about him but just leave him. Slowly, Ryosuke stood up and dust of his school uniform. The cut feels hurt it still can’t snap his mind from thinking about Yuto.
~o~o~o~
He leaned against the wall while his eyes keep on searching for someone. There were lots of people walked past him. He’s been waiting since morning up until now but yet the person that he waited still hasn’t come. He glance his watch once again, it’s already 3.15pm. The sky started to get dark and there’s a sign that it’ll rain.
“Ryosuke...” He uttered the name for the nth times. His mind continuously thinking either the latter will come to him or not. Suddenly, his eyes caught few people in black clothes and he recognizes them. Grabbing his travel bag, he lowered his cap and walked away from the spot avoiding the people.
~o~o~o~
‘listen Ryosuke...I love you...and I want to be with you...’
He close his eyes and grasp his heart. Tears race down his cheek and the rain wash it away. The rain start to pour heavily but Ryosuke still haven’t move his feet to find a shelter.
‘My life is incomplete without you...’
‘let’s run away from them.’
Eyes were opened and he has the decision. Ignoring the rain, Ryosuke run to his path of life. He can’t lie to his heart anymore. He loves the person and he want to be with him.
“Please be there...”
He doesn’t even know how long he had been running but it’s already dark when he reaches at the station. His school uniform was all wet and his face was pale. Ryosuke were shivering due to the coldness but he careless about it. All that he wanted is to meet Nakajima Yuto yet the latter is nowhere to be seen.
“..Y-yuto....yuto...”
His tears dripped from his eyes. He missed the last chance for them to be together. Slowly, his legs getting weaken. His pale lips repeating the name and more tears flowed down his face. The cold and loneliness is too much. Just when he thought that his life is over, a warm and strong hands grab his wrist and cover his mouth before drag him to a quiet place.
“Hush...they’re here..”
The person talked. As soon as he heard the voice, Ryosuke quickly remove the hand that covering his mouth and linked his arms on the latter’s waist.
“You’re here...Yuto...”
Yuto small and pulled the older closer. He can feel that the latter is shivering. A frown released from himself when he saw Ryosuke self. The guy is wet from head to his toes. He pushed the latter a bit and cupped the chubby cheek.
“You need to change your clothes..you’ll get sick..”
“No..we’ll leave this place first...”
The shorter replied while shrugging his head. The latter then tighten his arms on Yuto’s waist.
~o~o~o~
The small room were messed with clothes laying everywhere. The single bed occupied by two naked bodies covered with a white blanket. Slowly, his eyes open and stirred from his sleep. He feels a warm body leaned against his. A smile carved on his face when he saw the one that he loves sleep peacefully beside him.
He brushed off the brown bangs and planted a kiss on the latter head. The small figure stirred a bit but never awake, perhaps he still tired regarding their last night. He touches the pointed nose and slowly trace down to the latter’s lips. It’s a bit swollen, he think he overdo it last night. The touch caused the sleeping figure to stir from his sleep. His eyes fluttered open.
“Morning...” Yuto greeted Ryosuke. He smile and stroke the brown hair. The latter didn’t say anything but only to bury his face on Yuto’s chest.
“Still tired?” He asked while planted small kissed on Ryosuke’s shoulder. The older shrug his head gently. Yuto smile and pulled the small figure close to him.
Yesterday was the biggest decision that Ryosuke have ever made. Their love is wrong and should never exist but he can’t help it. To be with Yuto is the only thing that he wanted. Ryosuke knew that his mother and Yuto’s father won’t stay quiet with his decision. He was scared at first but then, he thought about it again he can't even live his life when Yuto is gone.
Kyoto is the place that they’ve choose. They rent a small apartment that enough for both of them to live. As days passed, both of them are happy with their new life. Slowly, Ryosuke start to see Yuto's warm and gentle side again. Back then Yuto used to be an impeller and obsessed person but now, the latter had changed. Their love life were filled with warm and loving feelings.
Sitting near the window, both Yuto and Ryosuke were staring the night sky. A smile lines on Yuto's lips before he close his eyes and holding on Ryosuke with his arms circled the latter’s waist while Ryosuke were leaning his head to the tall guy. Every night both of them will just stay silent and close together. Ever since they escape from their family, Yuto start to find a job and support their life. The work that he got doesn’t have a big payment but it just enough to feed both their life.
“...tired?..”
The brown haired guy uttered gently. Yuto smile and snuggled himself more to the latter. The older frowned as his eyes caught another wound on the younger elbow.
“You’ve got another wound again!”
“I’m fine as long as we stay like this..” Yuto smile assuring the frowning person.
Ryosuke released a soft chuckle and turn his body to face the tall latter.
“Am I your charger??”
“Hmm....what’ll you say ?”
A light slap landed on his chest. Ryosuke pouted his lips and hug Yuto’s waist as he buried his face on the latter chest once again. He loves to listen Yuto heartbeat. It’s like a song of lullaby for him.
“..ne..Ryosuke...”
“Hmm?”
“Do you regret to be here with me?”
Out of sudden he point out the question. It caused the small guy on his embrace to lift up his face and stares him deeply. Yuto smile in guilty as he saw Ryosuke’s eyes.
“I force you to love me from the beginning..and now I make your life hard I-“
Without listen to the guy words, Ryosuke pulled Yuto’s face down and crash their lips together. It wasn’t a hot or passionate kiss but just a simple yet full of Ryosuke feelings.
“I never regret it...it’s true that we start it with lust and coercion..but it changed right...I love you....”
He caresses Yuto’s face gently. Their eyes never leave each other.
Yuto give out his warm smile to Ryosuke as they staring to each other. Now, he got a strong reason for him not to regret their decision. The only thing that he regret is not to know the person earlier than his father. It would be different is he found Ryosuke first . Perhaps their relationship won’t be like what they have now.
~o~o~o~
Life isn’t easy as they thought. It was the day when Ryosuke decide to fetch Yuto at his workplace since the latter forgot to bring his umbrella. The sky was so dark and the rains pour heavily.
“Darn it...I should’ve bring it at first..”
The tall guy complained. He keeps on glancing his watch and the dark sky. Yuto can feel something is wrong. He suddenly feel uneasy while his heart beating faster. Yuto then took out his phone and dialled Ryosuke's number.
He fasten his pace and hugging himself. The cold weather causes him to shiver but he ignores it. He needs to be hurry. Yuto must’ve been waited for him. Before he manage to cross the road everything suddenly turn dark. The only face that he remember is Yuto. His phone were left on the ground, and it keeps on ringing.
Three hours have past yet the person that he waited still have come. He took out his phone and dialled the same number for the nth times but the latter doesn’t pick it.
“Why didn't you answer it Ryosuke? Where are you??”
His heart starts to feel something wrong. A few minutes after his make the phone call, unknown number suddenly appears on his phone screen. Hesitantly, he pressed the green button.
‘Hello..is this Nakajima Yuto?’
A voice belongs to middle aged woman talked at the other line. Yuto stiffed at his stand as he heard his name being called.
“Who's this?”
AN :
- Sorry for the super late update~! ;A; I got busy with work and some stuff~ T^T
- Boring part is here..lol~ too short? (bowed) gomenasai~ by the way, next part will be post tomorrow may be..
just be ready for the angst attack xD
- Just asking, which one of them you want to be more suffering?? Ryosuke or Yuto?? (stabbed by YamaJima)
- Comment are love :D