good to know i have friends who care about me. i love you all. life sucks and it should right now. it would not be okay if i was okay while my dad is dieing. im living at heidi's right now which is fine, but not home. the play is going well. diversity overnight was fun * winks *... well that's it, since certain people tell their parents everything ( Read more... )

she called me fat and a screwup within the first hour of my being home, no this is not a good environment for me, but neither is heidi's. Heidi thinks that i have discipline problems which i don't, i just need help. and if any of you tell your parents i said that and have them call my shrink again, i will be moving very far away and i promise you i ( Read more... )

he is awake and coherant and we talked and i read to him and he loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.... the hospice nurse said he had up to two months. i hope he beats that and gets strong enough to do chimo. woo hoo im crying with joy at the thought..... maybe i won't have to move out! maybe he will ( Read more... )

very bad day. very very bad day. k so like my dad is dieing. but im a dumbass so i went to school anyway, because ive run out of get out of jail free cards. so like this morning was so bad... im sitting in math class with josh !!!and i just randomly start drooling. and i had just eaten cracker jacks so it was like yellow. omg im such a dork.eeew. ( Read more... )

I miss my dad so much.He thinks i am avoiding him. he has pneumonia again, and there might be cancer in two places. i can't cry any more.i just can't get it out.i want to die. it just hurts so much: like my heart is being ripped out of my chest, slowly, string by sinewy string. Im so scared he is just gonna die one night while im asleep, and i won' ( Read more... )

Isn't this wonderful. My dad is in the hospital and most likely has cancer. He's been in the hospital for three weeks and i have been doing everything in my house from vaccuuming to making sure my mom takes her meds. o ya . my mom is disabled. she has a very severe back problem. SHe doesn't appreciate any of this so between falling asleep at the ( Read more... )