parents and friends
she called me fat and a screwup within the first hour of my being home, no this is not a good environment for me, but neither is heidi's. Heidi thinks that i have discipline problems which i don't, i just need help. and if any of you tell your parents i said that and have them call my shrink again, i will be moving very far away and i promise you i will not get caught and you will never see me again. of course that's just a threat i really have no place to run to. but still, parents don't understand anything. mine called me fat and a screwup..... ya maybe i am fat and maybe i am a screw up, but its not my fault. and if any of you have been talking to my crazy mother, she would tell you its because i can't take responsibility for being a screw up. i don't care i hate my mother.
i hate being at heidi's too. its not that i don't love heidi; i do.... but i can't stand being with anyone who distrusts me tath much. she doesn't believe a word i say. and what i need right now is for people to trust me more than i trust myself, so that i can bloody trust myself. so if you are my friend, trust me, love me have faith in me, don't give up on me....
i hate being at heidi's too. its not that i don't love heidi; i do.... but i can't stand being with anyone who distrusts me tath much. she doesn't believe a word i say. and what i need right now is for people to trust me more than i trust myself, so that i can bloody trust myself. so if you are my friend, trust me, love me have faith in me, don't give up on me....